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| If it weren't for bad luck........
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...I'd have no luck at all!
(Sorry, I had to get that out!)
I feel, sometimes, like there are cameras following me around. One of those cheesy early 90's Candid Camera shows, ya know? But this would be a much more extreme version. Well, because I have been feeling this way for a few years now. A very extreme edition, indeed. I just don't know how someone can have such consistently bad luck as me. I'm not saying other people don't have it worse than me. I know they do. It's just that, literally, everyday, there is another piece of bad news waiting for me when I get home. I need to find an outlet for this stress. Blogging on thoughts.com isn't enough, anymore. I feel, as though, I will snap soon. I can already see the early warning signs. I have become much shorter with everyone. All my comments are sarcastic or seriously negative. And (this I am most ashamed of) I have become rude and short with my daughter. I have to stop in the middle of an arguement with her and realize I am ARGUING with a 5 year old. The funny thing is that she knows its not her fault. She told me the other day when I stepped back from yelling at her, "It's okay mommy, just breathe." I almost cried for wanting to laugh so hard. That's what I tell her when she gets herself worked up crying or over exerting herself. It's moment like that that make me realize I only have a few years to really enjoy taking care of her before she becomes an adult and moves off to do her own thing. Okay, I gotta stop that. Here I am trying to get some anger and frustration off my chest and I replace it with depression. tsk tsk! *shakes finger at herself* |
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Posted by CryDemiFey on 2008-06-16 10:43:30 | Rating: | Views: 64
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I kind of feel the same way you do. I am angry all the time. I live around a person who is filled with negativity and it's messing up my brain and I don't know how to not let it. So basically what I'm saying is 'I feel you'.
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Posted by Faith
on 2008-06-16 14:07:42
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is there anyone who can help you anyone you trust, please try to get some help, you sound so depressed and your own daughter is trying to mother you, you need someone to give you some guidance
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Posted by roe
on 2008-06-21 22:49:43
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