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ok. so after the worse night of my visit. ha. and the day from hell, i am looking foward to a nice night in last night. i was sitting alone watching a movie with a fire going. its about 9 30. my phone rings. the person i least expect...or is it? luke, i answer with an awkward hi.
"how are you feeling today?" i hate the mocking tone he takes on when he knows i am hungover and ashamed.
"like shit"
"well, guess what?"
"what?"
"Im going to mexico!"
long story short he leaves tomorrow to go build a church with his dad a brother for a couple days.
back to last night. he asks what im doing... just watching a movie alone. what is he doing? nothing. against my better judgement these words climb out of me "well you are welcome to couch it with me". damnit... bad move right?
he comes over and im still getting ready so i look dumb cause i was trying to play it off like i had looked cute all day. whatever. hot tub again. full moon so we couldnt wear our suits... a little rule i have always had. we talk, try to avoid the night before. i do my usual try to make him jealous thing by saying stupid stuff. doesnt work. i ask for a neck message to make up for my birthday miss. he gives me one... ahh.. i couldnt take it.. i moved away... both of us to our own sides.
i look at him... lean forward a little like i wanted to kiss him but couldnt. he grabs the back of my head and gives me the kiss i have wanted for a month now. i was amazing. i was hooked. kissing...and well you know the rest of the story.
but wait, it was different this time. we went inside, i sat on the floor to look through movies, he sits behind me. his arms are wrapped around me. he wasnt trying to get some..it was just like the old us. we start watching a christmas story and i fall asleep in his lap. ahh. i wake up and tell him to come to bed with me. yes.. we did
but this time it was nice, gentle, slow. he looked in my eyes. he made sure i was ok. he felt so good. after we fell asleep spooning and i thought i was going to die i was so happy. he had set an early alarm so he could stay the night and still make it home for christmas. he woke up and immediatly gave me a kiss on the forhead.
he went down stairs and got his stuff together. i distinctly heard him take his did out of the player and put it with the rest. he then came up and lay with me a while longer. kissing me. telling me how great last night was. he leaves...says he'll call me or i can call him "or something". whatev. i just say "have fun in mexico". i get a text. "hey, i forgot my movies so i will have to get them after mexico, unless i see you today, ill call you later."
luke...did you forget them on purpose or what?
its 5, he hasnt called yet. truth is, i dont know if i even want him to call.
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Posted by Cripley1 on 2007-12-25 19:50:23 | Rating: | Views: 115
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awww. He sounds sweet. I don't really know you past, but good luck in the future. :0)
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Posted by LadiLucifer
on 2007-12-26 11:26:31
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He left them there on purpose!!!
Haha, sounds like something I would do.
Good luck!
and p.s. I'm jealous!
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Posted by livelaugthlove
on 2007-12-26 13:01:00
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