It has been a fairly good day today. Its the first day in the past week that I feel well enought to do anything that involves movement, because unfortunately I have had a severe sinus infection, and it was horrible. I couldnt breathe, i was coughing so hard i thought a lung was going to come up, and I sounded like I swallowed a bullfrog. So needless to say, I took a few sick days from work to try to recouperate, and Havent felt like blogging.

But today, IM BBBAAACCCKKK! and feeling much better.

On a different note, as my left arm, bittersweet, has already mentioned; my husband is in town for the weekend, which has been going quite well. Im not really sure what to expect out of this situation, and its starting to wear on me. We are getting along wonderfully, with the exception of me being quite "bitchy" when he first got here, because I was sick and irritated by it. I Love this man, but im not really sure I want to go through this back and forth "I Love You" and "Lets get a divorce" crap anymore...

With that being said...

For the past few weeks I have been talking to another man, a very old friend of mine, named Bishop. I DO NOT mean "talking" as in anything romantic! Although i find this man to be extremely attractive, I do love my husband and would never fool around on him for any reason what-so-ever. Im the type that beleives if you truly love someone, whether your having problems or are separated, or whatever the reson; you couldnt even look at another person and think about them in "That way."

I have had men, a lot of them close friends of mine and my husbands, try to get me drunk and strip for them, or to take risque' pictures of me on my picture phone and send it to them; I have even had them actually sneak a kiss when I wasnt expecting it, and I have pushed them off of me and explained that if they liked where their testicles were at the moment, they should not do that again. Otherwise i will remove said testicles, and shove them up their butt, so they can see how big of an ass-hole they really are.

SO i want no kind of "Relations" with this man at all.

We have been talking, however, about life and relationships in general. This man is ten years older than I am, and he can look at a person and tell you, with accuracy, what their words and actions say about them. When i explained my situation to him, he told me that it sounds as if my beloved husband, is just looking for a way to escape all of his issues, because thats what his parents did when they were young, so he's just going to follow their footsteps instead of being a man and taking care of his own problems.

When I told him the comment about "If we divorce, then we can start over" his response was..."Wow. sounds like the idiot has everything worked out doesnt he?"

Talking to this man helps me keep my mind off of my current fucked up situation, and im not so sure if this is a good thing, or a really bad thing... I dont want my attention to shift towards this man.

There is something that me and bittersweet always say, and that is Once you find "That One Person" it will always be them, and you could never love another person in the same capacity as them. I beleive this with my whole heart, and I know that my husband is "That one person" ... But other than my husband, no one has ever shifted my attention or kept it like Mr. Bishop can. And I dont like it.

Im not sure if it is because he makes me feel so much better after I talk to him, or because of how attractive he is. All I know is that, even though my husband is the love of my life, i dont want Mr. Bishop to turn into the lust of my life.


Life ... How interesting.