Thanks for correcting my mistake xD I don't speak English well, so I need to improve:)

And yeah,I agree with your opinion. Just gotta try and do that then^^

Hello Gnädige Frau:

We are all a little different on the internet, because our personality and behavior
are not revealed with words and pictures. You are attractive, but those who read
what you write, or see your photos do not know how friendly, funny or shy you are.
If the photos are of you, then you are not ugly, and a beautiful person is like a
pleasing and splendid work of art. There is nothing wrong with being shy; and when
a beautiful woman is shy, then that adds to her beauty. There is a Welsh proverb
which says that shyness is a maid's best dress. Aristotle called shyness an
ornament to youth. For a young lady to be shy is an intimation of her modesty.
But, shyness for an older person seems to be interpreted as an intimation of pride.
People who know you face-to-face have familiar and conventional expectations of
you; and those who know you from what you write on thoughts.com, or from your
photos, do not have the same intimate and informal expectations of you. To be
beautiful is to never be boring. When a person sees your pictures, they read your
words as being the words of a beautiful person. If you want people to imagine you
as being funny, then post some funny pictures of you, pictures of you being funny
with friends. If you want people to conceive of you as friendly, then post some
pictures of you with your best friends. Your pictures help people to better
visualize you. But, pictures of you in solitude are also very important; because
you want to project an image of yourself as being graceful, attractive, delightful,
radiant on your own, in your loneliness. If, in the real world, you are as alone
as one can be, then you are like every other person. Every person can relate to
your loneliness. Thomas Wolfe called loneliness "the central and inevitable
experience of every man". Lonesomeness is an existential anguish that we all must
suffer. But, solitude can be made into a glamorous and generous vision of charm,
fairness and grace. Look at the classical Roman arts, look at those solitary
figures. The beauty is largely that of an isolated individual, perhaps an
introverted individual. You say that you have no friends, not even one; but I'll
bet you have people who always seem to be around you. They hang around you because
they are interested in you, or curious about you. Perhaps they misinterpret your
shyness as pride, rather than as modesty. Perhaps you only need to look at them
and smile, and greet them. If you want people to think you're interesting, just
listen to them and show them that you are interested in them. People are
interested in people who are interested, and not in people who are interesting.
If you want to be interesting to people, then show them that you are interested in
them, in what they think, and in what they find interesting. What people seem to
think, or seem to be interested in, is all too often a cover to mask their true
self. People wear masks. What people say they think can be a mask. What people
seem interested in can be a veil. People are complicated and puzzling individuals,
with labyrinthine feelings and interlaced opinions. Every person is weird; which
means that being odd is normal and natural. People want and need love, and even a
fake individual is using a phony persona as a way to get love. It doesn't work; but
they have not yet learned that it doesn't work.

Be your own true and best self, and you'll be for others the beautiful, outgoing, funny and happy person you are.

Wow
Great words there! I was amazed by them, because I have never really thought of things the way you described them.
I do show that I'm interested in other people's conversations and actions, but to be honest I gave up.No one ever seems to notice that I'm even there.
I continue being friendly to them but it doesn't seem to work at all.
But what I do know is, that I've changed. I used to be quite selfish and more shy than I am now, but I've decided to offer people my help.
I thought that when you show them that you want to help that they would offer me something too, but most people love taking and not giving.
It's quite hard.

Thank you for your great explanation though! It helped me realize some things:)

Hello Gnädige Frau:
If you listen in on other people's conversations, then your act of listening is
good enough. You do not need to talk, and so there is no reason to give up. When
you see someone looking at you, that's someone who'd like to hear what you have to
say. Perhaps they are looking to you to see an expression, a gesture, a signal.
It is natural for others to want your honest and upbeat input. You can be honest
and happy as the same time. It may be that no one ever seems to notice that you're
there, but sometimes you need to take the initiative to let others know that you
are there because you want to be with them, to be a friend. Life is short; and when
you're older you will need memories of friends past and present to fill your
thoughts. Every person you see is as lonely as you, as timid and anxious as you.
You will come to regret all the opportunities to make friends that you squandered
as a youth. Being friendly is not something that can be measured by success. Don't
worry about success. You will only regret friendships that you could have made; but
you'll never regret friendships you could not have made. Being friendly is not
work; being friendly is a pleasure. Be patient; be there for others, but be
composed, quiet, uncomplaining, tolerant, understanding and forgiving when these
are called for. People often pretend not to notice, but people do notice you. It
may be that other people are afraid of you, of your beauty. It may be that other
people see your shyness as pride, rather than as modesty. It is up to you to
correct other people's opinions about you, not so much with your words, but more
with your actions, your being there, your interest in knowing and befriending them.
If you stand by others, they will stand with you. If you listen to others,they
will listen to you. Most people love giving, if and when they can take the time to
give. A lot of people cannot give, although they can take. If you give what you
can give, then you will be happy. But, it is important to know the person, because
some will take without giving. You need to know the difference. You need to know
people. You need to be wise and prudent in your relations with people. You learn
about people by watching them, and by listening to them. When you need to talk,
ask questions more often than you give your opinions. People will think you are
really wise if you ask questions, and listen in silence. Intelligent women are as
beautiful as they can be. Men love intelligent women, because intercourse is not
always sexual, but more often it is conversational. Good communication is as
important as good lovemaking. Without intelligent conversation, the lovemaking can
become insipid. Men go after another woman, all too often because the other woman
is an interesting conversationalist. Good lovers are good listeners, and not just
good kissers.

I always say I want to give up everything when I don't feel well,emotionally, but I actually fight a lot. I can never give up so easily, although I say it often.
I find it hard to judge people by their actions or gestures, that is why I find it hard to participate in their conversations.I already regret not having lived the past 6 years as I wanted to live. When I moved to another city and another school I suddenly changed. I lost all of my friends, I was quite popular before, because I showed myself as a funny, friendly and intelligent person. But for 6 years I've been the person I didn't want to be and I can't even explain why. That's what bothers me so much! If I at least knew why I changed I could find out how to be the same person I used to be...
At least I´ve learned how to deal with my situation now, how to cope with being alone and living a life I don't really like.

I appreciate your advice and all the good information
Sorry for writing so much about my "problems"(they're not really big problems).

Hello Again:
That's the spirit! You didn't feel emotionally well, but only for a while; and now
you're feeling better, and you do not want to give up. You fight the fight. This
is well and good. You can participate in a conversation by listening. After
listening for a while, you will understand and know what those who talk are saying
and thinking. You've got time. You're still young. You're not yet ready to
regret your mistakes and missed opportunities. You can learn from them, but you're
much too young to regret them. Save the regrets for when you're older. There will
be plenty of time for feelings of regret. While you're young life has some
opportunities for you. If you regret not having lived the past few years as you
wanted to live, then start living the way you want to live now. But be careful
that you do not live foolishly. You have freedom of choice; but you also have an
intellect and emotions. Listen to your mind and to your heart, not just to your
volition, or to your inclinations.

People change when they change communities. People adapt to changes in life. You
were not willing to let go of your former community and friends. You can keep in
touch with them, but your new community is a new opportunity to make new friends.
Remember, making friends is important, being a friend is important. We all exist
briefly between two opposite limits -- birth and death. You came from nothing, and
you will return to nothing. The love between your parents brought you into being
and life. Your love for them will give them joy for the rest of their lives. But
they want you to make good friends and to achieve happiness. They want you to find
the love they found for each other. They want you to learn what is good and right,
and to do what is fair and honest. They want you to live life fully, and to love
the life they gave you.

When you moved, you did not lose all of your former friends, because you can keep
in contact with them. Tell them that you miss them. But, you have new and future
friends which your move to a new community has made possible. As for being popular
this need will go away as soon as you graduate. Being popular is not the same as
having good friends. When the time is right, you can be funny and friendly, and
intelligence is best shown by silence and by listening. If you've been the person
you didn't want to be, then start being the person you do want to be. If you can't
explain why you are who you are, then you need to start being who you want to be.
The only explanation for being who you want to be is that you want to be who you
are. You may never know why you changed, but you did change, largely because you
changed communities. Don't let change bother you. Life is full of changes. And
you can never be the same person you used to be. In so many ways life is always
all about coping with being alone. We are individuals, and we are always apart,
even though we have friends and family. But life is not about your coping with
living a life you don't really like. You are free to break with living a life you
don't relish.

Everyone has problems. Remember that, when you feel burdened by your own personal
problems.

Thank you for allowing me to communicate with you. It was both a solace and a
delight. I remember the struggles of my own youth as I read about your own very
personal questions and challenges. No, your problems are not big problems, but they
are worth talking and writing about.

By the by, your handle "Cookie Monster" is very charming and funny.

Hi:)
I totally agree with the fact that when you change communities you meet other people and your life somehow changes.That's why I can't wait to move to Germany hoping that I will finally find some good friends and that I will change my life.
I just find it hard to let go of the past which also makes it harder for me to leave Portugal where I've lived all my life.
Anyway,I do listen to people's conversations and I never say much. I prefer to keep my opinion to myself, because it's not often accepted by anyone - doesn't bother me though.Everyone has a different point of view,fair enough.
Furthermore, I know that I will soon be able to change my life for the better.I have nothing to lose anyway :)
I quite admire your knowledge about these things, it might also be what you have experienced so far, just as you said yourself that it reminds you of the struggles of your own youth.
This information has definitely helped me realize things already, so I'm grateful.
And sorry for my bad English, if there are any mistakes.

"Cookie Monster" - I should call myself "Cookie Freak" haha. I love cookies ^^