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Hello,
Tomorrow, I am being screened to be part of an AA group. I am going to be kicking the old booze bottle for a while, time to reconnect with reality. It's so unfortunate, I have found so much solace in a great bottle of white wine, I love the blissful, childlike giggles that come alive with every sip. The warmth, comfort and spice of an excellent Shiraz, we have been friends for so long.
My issues, stem from codependency. As a child I was expected to be extremely independent from the very young age of 12, I am the oldest of four girls.
Standing alone is so difficult when you've had men building you up for the last six years. This is the first time i've been single for more than a week since I was 16? Yep, it's true.
That kind of dedication to the lives of another, often causes an individual to become a bit of a duality. They live for themselves and the other soul sucking partner that is attached to the individual. The partner becomes wrapped up, the individual becomes trapped, individual loses individuality. SImplisticly enough, until you are old enough and smart enough to know what the fuck you want and what it means to love another, stay the hell away from 25 year old men.
I am having a bit of blogger block, I am drowning in political readings for my Social Change class. The world is not necessarily dissapointing, but most of the people are.
Today is going to be a difficult one, but i'm ready. Time comes every once and a while to find your inner warrior, i'm looking for her and I better find her soon, I think she's in there.
Om Mani Padme Hum,
Mantra for change- Namaste, live well, live strong, fight hard, love much, seek truth.
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Posted by Conciousness on 2008-03-05 12:24:07 | Rating: | Views: 31
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