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After my entry and bitch session about my Valentine's and Anniversary, my boyfriend of three years, decided that we do not work anymore. I was dumped on my ass. I was extremely sad and miserable for a week or so, and now i'm working on rebuilding and moving on.
It's so funny how everything can seem so set in life, everything can seem so predictable, and then all of a sudden, that structure is gone.......and you're free.
I've never been so upset, but i've decided that being upset is an important part of existence. I was so heartbroken, and in so much pain, and then I realized that it's the first time in my life i've truly grieved for someone I really cared about, it makes me feel human and grateful that I was able to have that experience. I was in love, was the relationship great? mmm, it had it's ups and downs...
I've been writing to shuffle through the emotional hardship i've endured. Writing frantically, asking questions, looking for answers, trying to bring some justification to the situation. But the most frustrating things in these situations is the lack of control.
I've decided to take a positive spin on my recent heartbreak. I'm going to live my life! I leave for India for six months very soon. I will experience things that very few people ever have the chance too. I'm going to excersize, diet, slim down! I'm going to make every day a work of art and radiate love, strength and vigor. Being in love can happen everyday, you can wake up in the morning and just be in love with the day, and your spirit, and in doing so you can share that love with everyone else. You can make someone else's day brighter. Yes, it's painful to wake up in the morning alone, but everyday you stand on your feet a little stronger.
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Posted by Conciousness on 2008-02-27 14:55:26 | Rating: | Views: 52
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