It seems you had a problem sharing your feeling with anyone until the recent lost of someone close to you. Now you want to share whats inside but don't know exactly how...is that right?

just write down whatever you feel, no matter what it is or how you express it - that doesn't matter, just know people understand. take your time and write the words down that come into your head and just try and pen down whatever you're feeling, no matter whether it seems jumbled/unexpressive - believe me, people will and do understand.
dont be hard on yourself hon, you have done much by admiting you want help and writing here, baby steps and each one is a step forward.
best of luck poppet. hugs

that's exactly right! i've always wanted to share what was inside, but i never knew how. after my friend past, people saw i was hurt, and some knew it was more than the death that was getting to me. there were plenty of times when i was approached by someone who cared and wanted to help, i just couldn't get more than a word or two out about my feelings. now i'm here, writing at ease, realizing it's easier to write what i feel, rather than speak it...

I hear you saying a couple of different things. One is that even though people realized you were hurting inside...you didn't feel comfortable telling just anyone about your feelings. Two...writing your feelings and thoughts down is easy because you don't feel the pressure of people judging you or wondering what they think of you...so you can relax and let your thought flow. That's great!!! Keep writing...I am a great listener.....write away.

Hey, ComplexMelodies. I think I can relate. We're a bit different because for me, I fed on depressive thoughts instead of happy thoughts. Almost killed me. Sounds like you need something to be happy about.

Looks in to leave a hug, hoping you are okay xo

Sorry to be commenting again but I didn't see any new entries on this blog.

I would suggest you see a counselor. They could help.