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Hello everyone, I wanted to get on here and write some to update what's been going on in my life.
My friend told me that taking the chance to actually know me, you'll get more than you expect. Like everyone says there's more than what meets the eye. I'm a very quiet person and do my best to keep who I am truly hidden. But I try to keep my self safe and secure. That's why I don't say much. I use to be very outgoing til I got hurt so many times. That's why I am the way I am. Given in to what I want, but oh well. I'm not like most, so I doubt I'll ever get what I want, but I still try.
I am attracted to this young woman at work and her name is Elizabeth, but goes by Liz. After work on Wednesday, We went to a movie and I didn't try anything, just so you know, cause I'm not that type of guy and then I took her home.
But last night, I picked her up for work and after work, we went a movie and I tried to reach for her hand and by that time she raised it and I ended up putting my hand on her leg, so idk. But after awhile, instead of just doing it like MOST guys, I asked for her acceptance on wanting to put my arm around her, but that turned out as being she doesn't date ppl from work.... Then I told her that what if I did my best to EARN IT, and I did everything to try to tell her I'm not like most guys, which I do belief faithfully, I am not. I was brought up so much better than that. She said that it's fine if I went ahead and done so, but I got severely confused, so I didn't do so. After awhile, I felt I was screwing up a good thing, so I re-asked her about putting my arm around her. She said we already talked about it, so everythings alright. I do so, and every now and then, she layed her head back onto my arm, not for that long though.
On the way to drop her off, we talked quite abit. She said she'd consider another try, beings she's always had bad luck with dating guys from work.
I promised her if it ended up awkward, I'd quit myself, but I wish I would have brought up me changing shifts so we wouldn't see each other that much. But I feel confident it's very possible. She seems very loyal/trustworthy from what I can see and feel. Every guy she's ever dated from where she worked, cheated on her. I'm very confident in who I am, to know I wouldn't be the one to treat her unfairly.... I wish I could find a way to help her realize that. But I can be very patient, so time will tell.
I keep feeling that if I don't write her or say something, she'll base me on every other guy that has never worked out, which results into being negative.
A couple of the things about her that caught my eye is that she is very beautiful to me, (those beautiful eyes, sweet lips, which also can be translated as amazing smile and very sweet. ;-) I like her and I very much enjoy every chance I get to know more about her. We seem to be alot alike from what I do know right now. It's been quite a while since I've actually been in the dating type and I hope thus far, I'm doing alright.... Possibly alittle rusty, lol! She seems like she likes me, but I don't know, and time will tell on that as well. I totally had forgotten what all this was like, but everything's fine, I'll be alright, no matter what. But anyway, I went and saw Marti, one of my friends in Columbus that's in a group/band and that's pretty much some of what I did today. As a kind gesture, I got their autograph for her. Not sure if she likes them or not, but oh well, that is, if she possibly even knows who they are. The thought popped in my head and so I said 'what the hell' and went ahead and asked and got it. If she doesn't want it, I'll give it to someone else. No big deal, just autographs.
But back to the subject at hand, the reason I want to give it a shot is cause you only live once and if passed up, you'll never know if it would have been amazing or not. The whole point about things, you just have to know how a relationship should be, you should have no fears. Not knowing what could happen, drives me crazy. I've passed up things in my life and later on looked back regretting why I didn't take the chance, make the leap, go ahead and jump. But I was scared. So I understand where Liz is coming from.. Hence, I can be patient and we'll see together possibly how it goes. Once we get to know each other more and time goes by, that will answer the question. I know what I've been through and what has made me who I am. Anyone reading this knows what I mean, just by reading my blog here. But anyway... I'm going to head to bed, but before I leave, I am going to post a vid that I feel is quite accurate for the current events... It explains in general, how patient I can be....
Just click here: www.youtube.com/watch
LISTEN AND ENJOY!!!!
C-Ya!
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Posted by Cmptrsdeal on 2008-07-27 05:16:49 | Rating: | Views: 29
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