So today has been frustrating. Maybe its the lack of sleep, maybe it's all the problems that i am going through. i honestly dont know. Im taking a higher dose of medicine, well because my doc told me too...lol Well my mom is threatning to tell the courts that the reason im so
"out of control" is because of my higher dose of meds. I went from 50 mg. to 300 mg.
I honestly dont know how i am "out of control" but its whatever. Its sad to think my mom wants me to turn me in to the courts, what a bitch.

My grandma has been the one person i can trust with anything, but sometimes im afraid to tell her things, because i care what she thinks of me, wouldn't we all?

My mom said her family is backing her up on her rant to destroy me.. Well when i called my grandmother she claimed to not know anything.
Who am i to believe? My evil mom or my trusting gram?

Living with my dad, is something new to me.. since i haven't really "lived" With him for years. Im trying to make things work, but damn it is hard when his mom is there always bitching about everything. Im also trying to be patient with her, but i hope i get it back in return.

Last night after i got done writing, this guy told me "wow i've been talking to you for 4 hours and you couldn't tell me about this marine your talking to?"
Im sorry, i really am.

Im confused on what i should do about that marine. Military people are ass holes! He's one of those guys that hate being away from you, and when you are away from them they treat you like shit, but when your with them everything is perfect and he's my evreything.
What to do about him? i have no idea. advice?
 
Im going to try my hardest to keep smiling and keep my head up today.
If you have any advice, please feel free..i need anything i can get.


You know you love me,
Chelsea.