Ok so in my heart things weren't working out.  Like I also said I couldn't put my finger on what it was that had me so bent out of shape.  My friends figured it was just me.  Well hell I hadn't been married a year.  So as time progressed come Nov we decided the very best thing would be to split.  I was sad, it hurt but after a year I felt it was the best.  Now I know what you are saying, the first year is the hardest.  Yes it is but it didn't feel like hard times, it  felt like, well bs. 

First of the year came around.  I didn't enjoy Christmas because I was so uptight around his family and everything. We didn't spend new year's together.  First time since we had been together that we hadn't .  I wasn't really phased or upset about it.  Shortly there after I found out what was so wrong.  I had been getting signals for a while and it was time for me to ask the question that no woman ever wants to ask her husband.........

Are you gay?