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I feel ever so sad and sorry for myself. Why haven't I written here and contemplated in so long? Now all of my thoughts and ideas and beliefs are confused and I don't know what all of my opinions and plans are anymore, and I'm pretty sure I can feel it gradually catching up on me again.

This is like, the cycle of life. It's like cleaning your house. Ideally, we'd be able to spring clean about once a week. Every week would provide a shiny sparkling outlook because your life had just had a big spring clean up. But instead, it's spring cleaned about twice a year. And it's really hard to decide when that is, so everyone is confused as to mood swings and so on :(

My bedroom has been tidy for quite a while, I keep everything in line it's just that more stuff has been coming and I've had to find places to put it and gradually I have just stopped bothering with all the small stuff to sort out the big stuff. Now my room is a complete mess because I'm getting a new bed so I have to move everything around. This is not symbollic to some kind of break down in organised thoughts or something, this is my actual bedroom.. :)

My thoughts are just.. I haven't thought about them in a while so I don't know what I think about them and what I'm going to do about them anymore. Oh, I don't know. I know what I mean I think. I don't even care that I can't work out this long metaphor thing myself. I'll be glad when my room is clear and I can start decorating it with my pretty glass and sparkles.

Friends. I don't like friends. I can't decide what I think about friends at all. Which is hard, being such an important topic. Everybody needs friends. I have friends. I'm not sure I want the responsibility of having friends. Who knows. Who cares. Maybe I am just tired since I keep staying up late.