So more of the drama of my roommates. I feel the the permanent third wheel. I hate it, but I don't know what to do about it. I can't afford to live on my own. I don't know if I will be able to live with them for another year though. It's very frustrating, and also very demeaning. How can I stay with them for another year and live every day as an unwanted house guest??

I have been thinking of any other options.... but I can't afford to live on my own. I don't really have anyone that I can live with. I have been toying with the idea of living on campus somewhere... but what college? Could I even get in?

It's already depressing living with them. I used to consider Liz my best friend. Well, she obviously doesn't feel the same way about me. This is exactly why I should just avoid getting close to anyone. I'm SO SICK of getting hurt everytime I let my guard down. Maybe I will continue to live with them, but just forget about the friendship aspect of it. Will I really be able to do that? Im sick of being lonely. I really don't want to slip into another bout of depression, but I can feel myself spiraling downwards.

Im just going to shower and go to bed. Forget it.