Hi internet world. 
This is me.
     I am a mother of one fantastic, loving, empathetic, kind, hilarious son and we adore each other.  What more can you ask for?
All the other things can be tolerated.  I left a 13-yr relationship and 11-yr marriage due to severe conflict in our family, also happening in front of our son.  It was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, & I've done hard things! 
     I lost my mom when I was 19, my dad had been gone for 7 years, I had to sell our house, my brother disappeared, my aunts & uncles scattered from the pain, my boyfriend broke up with me and I went back to my freshman year in college.  But this has been phenomenally harder.  His family became my family, but because of the situation,  I'm the estranged one. 
     This has been the worst and the best part of my life.  The best because I have found a relationship with Christ that I've never had or imagined.  I'm in the palm of His hand.  He is ordering my steps and keeping me safe.  I had to set up a whole new household and He has provided me with everything I've needed.  I had to leave my house so after working for 10 years I felt I had little to show for it.  But I have a good place to live, I'm making new friends and I can sleep at night.  We have joint custody and because my husband didn't work during the majority of our marriage, I am ordered to pay child support that equals 1/4 of my income.  My expenses exceed my income nearly every month, but every month I make it through, unscathed.
     And that's it!  I'm walking down a very narrow, dangerous looking path, but everything is already planned out for me and it's better than I could possibly see from here.