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I am being so overly spoiled in this blog, but overly spoiled people still have feelings.
I have picked out an engagement ring and my boyfriend and I have been talking about engagement for months. It is Very Expensive. $2199 But oh so beautiful, and I am very picky. If I am going to be wearing an engagement ring the rest of my life, I want to look at it and think it is gorgeous. I have looked for cheaper rings really hard, but as I said, I am picky. I took a friend to see it just now. We went in my boyfriends NEW car. this is what pisses me off. He was going to start saving up a long time ago. He couldn't make payments because of his bad credit. Now, he just got a new car, and his payments went up 400 dollars!!!! Hello!!! I will admit, he needed a new one. His saturn was requiring alot of maintanence. But sitll, he is making the same as when I met him. If he could afford an extra 400 dollars this whole time, he could have proposed to me. He said he would be saving up since we talked about it, and how we don't have to get married for a long time. Now he says he will start saving up when he gets his raise in february. FUCKING FEBRUARY. IF he spends whis WHOLE raise on me ($1.50 an hour not bad for a raise really.) He will have 60 bucks extra a week. That will only take an extra NINE months!!! So pretty much a year and a half total of waiting, when he said it might be on Valentin'es day. That was only 5 months away at the time he said he was going to save for it. If you can do math in your head, he could have done on that day, or even before. I know he isn't prolonging it because he doesn't want to. But after my last blog I might question it. He loves me so much. He hates to be away from me. I told him I wanted to wait until marraige a while back and he said okay. Of course that didn't last long, but regardless of it all, I should have my ring by now. Am I feeling insecure? Wanting to get engaged because I think it means that he will be with me forever for sure? That is totally a false sense of security. Marraige is what does it. I will sue that bitch for everything he owns if we do get married and he cheats on me or divorces me. Is it the ring, or getting engaged period that is making me feel this way. I think it's a mix of both. I really believe that my subconciense is thinking he will never leave me if it happens. Of course, My mind keeps shouting, I want it I want it. I really do want the ring, but is it just a symbol of getting engaged. I have no fucking clue. I am really lost. And hurt.
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Posted by BriannaPerfection on 2007-11-20 20:52:24 | Rating: | Views: 70
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Chill out. You sound so spoiled in this blog. If you are in love then he should be worth the wait... You've only been with him for months. I've been with my bf for 5 years, living together 1 year and have to dogs with him... I'll wait forever. Of course I want a pretty ring and of course I want to be able to call him my husband, but if none of that happens, I'm lucky enough to just call him mine and I could do that forever with or without a wedding.
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Posted by LadiLucifer
on 2007-11-21 06:53:28
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Brianna...I don't think you're stable enought to be Engaged or even with a boyfriend, whom you claim that is cheatin' on you on the internet infact. The Engagement ring, is not goin' to make it any better, you'll be in debt, and You can't return the ring after 30 days...Come down, step back and think about WHAT you really need...Maybe another session at your Therpist... Good luck sweetie...xo
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Posted by olp76
on 2007-11-23 07:48:04
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your making engagement sound so materialistic
be happy you have a boyfriend
be happy your in love
be happy your alive
because in the end, that's all that counts
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Posted by xhisxheroinex
on 2008-01-23 19:17:13
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