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Well, another young death. My brother's friend Jarod Snyder, only 19 years old, died on the 3rd. A very freak death. He locked himself out of his apartment and he went to crawl through the window but the window came down on his neck and suffocated him. Like how someone would grab your throat to strangle you, yeah a window did that to him. So sad. And very weird. I crawled through so many windows in my life. Never again though. I don't want to die like that. My brother was freaking out like bad too. Jarod was one of his really good friends. I wouldn't know what to do if one of my good friends died, well if I had any. I have shitty friends. I can't trust them at all. Shady people. Most of ‘em stopped talking to me after I got pregnant. I couldn't party anymore so what good was I to them? Oh well, they were wasting my time anyways. Yeah I have some awesome memories with them, but I can make many, many more amazing memories without them.
I've been thinking a lot lately. I am really starting to doubt me and Mike's relationship. The spark just died. I love him to death don't get me wrong, but man, I want it to go back to how it used to be between us. Strong, fun, amazing, surprising, etc. I just don't know anymore. Is there really such a thing as a love that never ends? I hate love. It's not how those fairy tales say it is. Happily ever after? Nobody actually has that ending, Real endings are divorce and break ups. Maybe even death. But no "and they lived happily ever after". There's no such thing as "I'll love you forever". Nobody does. They always leave. There is only one boy I know I will definitely no matter what love forever, my son Braiden. Ugh.. I just don't know anymore...
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Love is not a fairy tale, even real love. It has trials and tribulations, ups and downs, what makes it love is that you are willing to work through it all with the other person....I know what you mean about friends, I had my first daughter at 17 and all my friends ditched me, but I have made new ones and that's what life is really all about, moving forward.
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Posted by Rajah1116
on 2008-08-06 14:06:01
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That really sucks about Jarod!! I always thought if you climbed through a window, then something like that would happen! But I didn't think it would actually happen; I thought it was all in my imagination.
I guess not.
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Posted by singer_cutie25
on 2008-08-06 16:44:43
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