Since finding my way back to T.com I have received volumes of emails (I'm still in the process of replying to many--including sorting through the Mt Email Everest that grew whilst I was absent); many have been wonderfully warm, caring, supportive, encouraging, compassionate, reassuring, friendly...all the good things. I've also been in receipt of some funny, quirky and mind boggling ones. What has taken me by surprise is the negative mail I have received--not that that is anything new as I received negative mail during my previous turn at T.com, but the amount and the content of the said mail.
The things that have been said in these emails all have a common thread; telling me who I am. Apparently I am--too serious, not serious enough, too mature, immature, too sure of myself, lacking self-esteem, too intelligent, a dumb blonde, too boring, too sexy, too flirtatious, too common, stupid, ugly, ignorant, snobby, biased, the list goes on...And to top it off--I'll never be as good/giving/special/intelligent/beautiful as my sister Sydney (by people who weren't even close to Syd) something which I don't need to be told, I KNOW this--every day in so many ways I am reminded of the fact that I'll never be like Syd. But you know what? As much as I loved, adored and respected my sister, I don't want to be like her...I wish to have some of the qualities she possessed and I'll strive to obtain them, but I am me. Unique. Individual.
I am: original, immature, gregarious, opinionated, petulant, funny, quirky, kind-hearted, impatient, warm, moody, seductive, capricious, intuitive, cautious, loving, selfish, honest, indecisive, idealistic, stubborn, optimistic, childish, passionate, shrewd, loyal, complex, respectful, irresponsible, tolerant, forceful, playful, persistent, considerate, rebellious, adventurous, complacent, generous, impractical, sincere, disorganised, cheerful, scattered, intelligent... I am all these things and more.
I don't need to be told who I am. I know what my weaknesses and flaws are and even the few qualities I possess.
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