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Courage vs. Insecurities.

I wish I had courage. Courage to tell you, that your about to make a HUGE mistake. Courage to tell my mom that I disagree with a lot of things she's doing. Courage to tell dad to grow up a little bit. Maybe If i were more courageous life would be easier. Okay, I know that's not gonna happen. Life is always hard, no matter what you do or have or say. I just think that I keep my opinions to myself, a little bit too much. Maybe it comes from the fact that I don't like to hurt people, maybe I'm just chicken, I don't know. But I do know that my feelings and thoughts never get out there. And sometime's it;s hard. Sure, I have enough "courage" to stick up for myself, but thats pride more than anything. Sure, I have enough "courage" to make a fool of myself, laugh at myself, but that's just my personality, and thats because I don't care what other people think. So really, the courageous things about me aren't courageous at all.

Maybe It's good that I don't have enough courage to let people know how Im feeling, or what I think. Maybe that way I can't get hurt. Maybe that way I can keep myself guarded. Is that my way of thinking? who knows. Maybe Im simply not comfortable enough with myself, for my opinions to get heard. Maybe, It's not lack of courage that keeps me from letting people hear my songs, my voice. Maybe it's insecurities, but I dont feel insecure. Im happy, not insecure.
So what is it? You tell me.