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If you met me or my friends we are dark ,evil,and overpowering sometimes by that i mean we like to control the way things are around us and that may mean making certain things happen.someone said something to me the other day that cought my attention...that i was as black as night ..my thoughts,my dress code, my life really.So i guess i put myself there . I told someone i loved like a brother my last goodbye because he was making me feel things i didnt want to and by that he brought my feelings back to me all of them ,the pain,the hurt, the emotions in my brain that i cant control anymore.it seems because of this i wanted to push him away because i didnt want to feel them .so i lost my iming big brother tony .he is a great person .....then i thought to myself better now rather than later to push him away because then i'll get to attatched to someone who i cant have around and i wont be able to later because what if he disappoints me like everyone else has? what if when i really need him he wont be there? what if is all i was asking myself i didnt even think it through.i just said now do it now he'll never know why just do it now......but now was the worst time ever but i did it anyways. i have no hard feeling or regreats for what i did just left over thoughts i cant get out of my head....like this was the worst time.....and he doesnt really care let it go....or my personal favorite hes just like everyone else just pray that he dies because he didnt care he was leading you on just to make your life worse.....these thoughts arte what put me in the darkness in the first place.so dont cry for me just dont get to close or you may end up the same way.....hurt and ashamed that you are why you are you.
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Posted by Black_Angel on 2008-07-16 15:38:00 | Rating: | Views: 21
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