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Sometimes U Forget

today I did something for a very special person, and I am really proud of it. Like I have said in previous posts, at o ne point in my life I fancied myself a writer. I have always wondered exactly what type of writing that I should do, I love poetry and really thrive on stage, but when you sit down to write at home, something you love can quicky turn into a job due to insecurity and just plain... my mind at this time is blocked. But this weekend I helped someone with a story they wanted to tell, even though some of the things will be changed it made me realize that maybe this is my gift and I can be my biggest enemey if I don't go for it and just do it. When it was for someone else I found myself writing with ease. I suppose its time that I do that for myself... really believe that I can do it. I didn't even know that I understood her story the way it came out onto the paper. I really could make this a career for myself. I just have to take the next steps and to do what every writer has said. To make sure that I write every single day... Even when its hard and I don't really want to do it. I have to take the time to believe in myself and just do what I need to do.
So many days I am thinking about my love life,or about my vices. However I forgot how much that pain I was feeling when my baby get into, can do on a piece of paper, how something I write can be enjoyed by someoone else. I sometimes lose myself, but whether I am tell her or not. I have a conscious that is livng and walking.
It feels good to be able to have someone in your life who really can pull the best work out of you. I might hate her when she is pissing me off but come on only someone really close to you have the resources to get beneath the skin. It's really bad during a fight, but when I need that extra push it can be really helpful. Tomorrow is a day full of possiblities. Hopefully I remember this feeling when I wake up so I can just get up and go for it.
So I am off to write.... have a good sunday peeps...