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So Christmas is a couple of days away. I had the most sweetest christmas, I know it hasn't even come yet but I have spent my holiday with one of the people I love most. Now I am going to go home and spend the actual day with my mother and maybe my family. I am currently trying to relocate and get a job in a city that is near where I am living with my MOM. I came down here about a week ago to go on an interview and I never left.. I am happy that I stayed around its been really fun. Had some good sex and I got a couple of really good presents that I am going to enjoy after Christmas. She made me promise that I wouldn't open them. Man its been a long year as I look back on things. Last Christmas it seemed like things were getting so much better but alot of things happened and it all took a turn that wasn't so positive. However this year even though its not exactly as I would have dreamed it to be, its been really nice. I am happy with the outcome. For the many days that have lead up to the big Christmas day I was just wishing the season would continue to come and then just go. I was definitely the scrooge this year. In spite of the pretty lights my mother put up at home.... I just didnt think the season could get any better. I didn't have a job, and money seemed like something that grew on trees in some far away place. For a person like me, not able to give something to the person or persons that really make you feel so good inside is a sad thing for me. However this year has brought many changes.. this will be my second Christmas without my best friend. I know after the first Christmas it should be easier, but last year we did say merry christmas and spoke for a little while. I honestly can't believe I am still sad about the whole thing. But I am a little. And well my on again off again girlfriend is looking toward a whole new year so she got me a little something which is the first time since I have known her. And I feel so special because she did a really good job and got me things that I really love which means she really knows me which is a gift in itself. And well I am going to see my mother this Christmas and allthough we have not gotten along the best over the years, I am excited to spend the day with her. Well even though its not the best christmas season I have ever had... I will say that this small loving christmas has all the fixings that I need.
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Posted by BitterSweetNy on 2007-12-23 11:11:26 | Rating: | Views: 56
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