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So today I have an interview....I am so nervous. Its been about six months since I have been in the work force. the job I really wanted was sent into the world of things that I will not have. It made me sad but being adult is about picking up and moving on...right? I think so or at least that is what I have learned in these last hard years. But I am ready and prepared to go on and do my thing. I hope that I am able to charm my interviewer come off confident and qualified for the job. However the truth is that I am over qualified, but at this point beggers can not be choosers.. (oh that is so cliche, made my skin crawl to really use it.. but hey it is true). I just hope that after I get the job.. I will be able to maintain my sense of understanding for office politics because I really hate them. The work place is worse then the popularity game of high school. Truthfully I believe that high school prepares you for the work force. My last job was a good job, I enjoyed it and I was moving up...however, due to the fact that I might have been just a slight bit more intelligent than my superior and well proactive. In a marketing meeting I listened and heard important information that was beneficial to my job. No one else seemed to find the information important.. after several minutes my superior who I will name... MiMI Vanuki... states that is pretty important...write it down. I had already written it down...she took that moment to single me out.. "Why are you not writing" she stated. I smiled sweetly and said I already have written it down. That was the beginning of the end for that job. A job that I was good at...Office Politics. I am not looking forward to it. However I have a two year plan that I plan on completing. I want to enjoy my life. A life of love, work, family and prayer. It simple. I want to be able to travel. Now I have to right the mistakes of my past. Thats harder than moving on. I wish someone would have given my child games on how to balance a check book, pamphlets on the importance of having a good credit score. No credit can ruin your life.. In my past four years I have had my car repossessed. I have been evicted. These mistakes follow you like cancer. Eating away at your future dreams. Oh how... I wish I would have had a bank game as a tot. Checks and Deposits.... Because when I first entered college, the pull of Visa and Mastercard stands outside of the student center would have been red flags of you need a job before you spend money you don't have. As a young adult... at 26 I now see the error of my ways. I am lucky...No I am blessed because I have prayed and I know that this is my second chance. I have to take the bull by its horns for a lack of a better cliche. I have to take control of my own future. Some of us know these responsibilities at the beginning of life. Gladly I didn't take to many years to know. Living in my car, being expose to the gritty lifestyle ofan addict, has taught me much more than anything has. Now I know how I want to live and where I want to go. I am not saying its the only way to learn but it helped me to center my goals. I must admit that I am still confused about some things...exactly which profession is going to most compliment my best qualities, or if I should follow my heart of being a writer. But I know that only I can take care of myself, so my goals should be important in making sure I live comfortably. But I must be happy to, having hobbies, and things that help to expand my base of knowledge. It feels good to be clear headed and to really know myself. On the road to success is not an easy road.. it takes sacrifice and dedication. It means going to work on days that I don't want to, making sure I have my bills paid, making it to class online as I continue my education. It even means making sure my home life is comfortable and stress free. Because I promise stress won't kill me like it has done to many people before me. Taking the course that is less traveled can be scary, but fear is only a lack of love.... the other side of the spectrum. I AM NOT FEAR.. I am success... I will find a way or make one. It may sound barbaric, but as I entered college at Clark Atlanta University..those words graced the brown buildings. It was the best advice I could have ever recieved. Because its what it stands for... it means that I do not accept failure, it is not an option.
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Posted by BitterSweetNy on 2007-12-13 13:06:46 | Rating: | Views: 41
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