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Oh Haunt Me NOT.. Old Nicotine

Okay, technically I am on the road to quit smoking. Boy is the this road hard. this morning I awoke to the sound of the phone ringing, however I didn't know it was the phone. Somewhere in my head there was a dancing cigarette. No really.... a dancing cigarette. Its been about two days since my last one and boy is it haunting me now.
I wake up screaming.. OH Haunt me not Old nicotine.. leave me here to breath free. I begged that cigarette to just let me be.. "Please Old Nicotine, we have not even been friends that long. I mean, on and off for three years is not that long. I mean don't you have friends who have been with you for at least five years or more?"
He laughed at me, spinning his burning head.
"I rather be friends with Mr. Weed.. I mean he and I have our problems too, but its been at least a week since I have hung with him. He is less harsh to my lungs."
Again he laughed.. told me to get out of bed and hit the store.
I couldn't do it, I mean because this was just a nightmare. I for a moment could fall into his trap.
I am tapping the keys, taping my fingers, blinking my eyes.
"You will have withdrawls" he taunts me.
Look I start.. " I have kicked worse habits buddy, and even though I am pretty stressed. You really don't make me feel any better. I am stronger than the mind games your playing."
We went back and forth like this for awhile. Then the phone rang again... I opened my eyes, and he was gone.
Now I know this sounds a bit crazy, but really.. the desire to pull a drag from a fag, is really eating me up. Its only been two days,a nd honestly I don't even have that kind of money to spend on those nasty things.
But oh how I could really use the inhale, exhale of the cig.
But he won't haunt me much longer.
You stay away old nicotine.. and if I can kick that other thing.. I can certainly kick you. You ain't shit bro....
Keep me in your addiction prayers people... gotta get away from him...