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LOSING HOPE
Many days these days begin the same, the sun penetrating the cheap glass of my track home identical to my neighbors. I stretch quickly and retire to a bathroom full of leopard that I hate. But as always I remember beggars can not be choosers and right now all I do is beg. My begging is in the disguise of prayers. "Oh God, remember my face and my name at the unemployment line there in heaven". Because I must be dying, I wonder if I have inherited my grams way of hypochondriac expressions, because it is true...my head is pounding my chest hurts and I must have gained more weight than a person my size can bare because I swear now it's hard to walk. However employers they don't know that part, because I smile and I give them my best impression of who I was, because I don't quite recognize the person in the mirror anymore. However, I continue to look for work in a city that employs only twenty percent of its homeowners and inhabitants. But I believe in you Dear God so I pray, I send off my resume, I pound the pavement, but nothing. I am losing my belief in happily ever afters. Once a girl surrounded by friends’ lives now alone in a dark room trying her best to block out the sun. Who have I become I ask myself while brushing my teeth. However the day continues on, sitting at my computer hoping for a creative thought, everything at a stand still which leaves me completely breathless so I give up and lay down to sleep. Hoping that today I will wake up to a miracle. Haven't given up on life yet, not today! Will not take my life and ask for pity. Instead another day begins and I try again.
Posted by BitterSweetNy on 2008-03-27 19:39:05 | Rating: | Views: 73


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Posted by
SubTomato
on 2008-03-27 19:42:40
 
More power to you.
 
 

Posted by
brainstormer
on 2008-03-27 22:55:43
 
Been there, felt that. Hope I dont run into some of that ever or again. I wonder how I keep hope alive myself most days. You took the energy out of me, but at least I can relate somewhat. Mind if I sit down and get drunk with you?:P jk
 
 

Posted by
Nubian
on 2008-03-28 01:15:42
 
I am there with you girlfriend. I know that it is hard and its OK to stop for a minute but not too long. For you have so much work to do. Even when the clouds hang low keep your head to the sun.
 
 

Posted by
xXrejectedsoulXx
on 2008-03-28 12:16:15
 
Keep praying to our lord , Jesus Christ.
Always believe in yourself , for someday a miracle will fall upon you. I have a suggestion, why don't you write a book about you life? About a women who never gave up , and kept going always going strong. I could help yo if you need help at all just message me.
Mrs. Alexiia Wishberg
Good Luck
 
 

Posted by
Supporttheflock1995
on 2008-03-29 09:47:49
 
Keep praying and just try to think happy,maybe I should take my oiwn advice. But still just keep praying and the lord will help YOU!
 
 

Posted by
BitterSweetNy
on 2008-04-01 19:32:08
 
Thanks Everybody... Had another interview today and I am just like screaming on the inside. They say when it rains it pours.. WELL ITS POURING
 
 


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