Free to be me...just who you see, not concerning myself with what you think I should be.   Open to life, resisting the strife, of defining myself by daughter, sister or wife.  Tired of pushing my dreams to the back of the shelf, not being true to oneself; I miss myself. 

That thought popped in my head this morning, right between Good Morning Jesus and Thank You God!  Finding time, making time, to hang out with me and getting in touch with who God created me to be.

Then I got of bed and life is still happening;  I'm trying to figure out where the time is going.  It is the fifth month of the year...and I'm still playing catch up from January.  I have oodles of things to add to my already too full to-do list.  One of which is to stop making such long to-do lists.  However, in the midst of the busyness - I am excited and expecting.   I'm ready to find me again, see what's going to blossom in this season of my life.   Spring is the time to wear bright colors, shed the many layers of protection and just embrace the sun.  My inspiration is coming back - to write.  I've decided not to worry about being good, just about being open.

That's where I am today.  Missing myself.  The self that I am underneath the many roles I play.  I'm not complaining about being a mom, a daughter, a wife, a sister, etc...but there are times, like today, when I just need to be very simply me.  And the first thing...get the music back in my life. 

Gotta go!