Hi Thoughtsharers!

It's been a little time since I've shared what's on my mind.  The title can give you some idea of what's been going on.  I've been experiencing some 'false starts'.  You know when you've set you mind in gear, trained your body, the gun goes off and you take off, only to be called back because of a 'false start'.  In my case, it's like hearing the pep talk, the prophecy, getting what I think is a second wind and taking off into my destiny running full speed ahead.   Only to start to lose breath, get blurred vision, catch a cramp, and fall into 'apathy'  and the agony of yet another 'false start'. 

The race is not given to the swift or the strong, but to him who endures to the end.

I'm not pacing myself.  I'm trying to do all things right now.  Like somehow I'm going to run out of time...like my destiny is going to be fulfilled by someone other than me.  It's a trust issue for me...trusting that my season is coming...that I won't have to build a time warp (so I can go back and recapture something lost); that I won't have to create my own weather machine (so I can prevent the storms and tornadoes that threaten to make me give up and give in to something other than my destiny); that I won't settle for average when greatness is in me and for me.  Greatness not defined by man but by God and in God.

I will run and not get weary, walk and not faint.

I must walk with assurance and confidence and complete trust in Him who designed and controls my destiny.  It's not about me creating my destiny; it was already preordained.  It's about activating the process by my faith in Him and receiving all He has in store for me.  it's about getting better at the WAITing (worship, adoration, intimacy and trust) process.  I want so badly to speed up, to sprint to the finish line, but that doesn't show endurance.  It doesn't show faith. 

I don't want any more false starts.  I want to finish something...moving at a pace pleasing to God and purposeful to His plan for my life.  Pacing...trusting...enduring to the end.

Just a few more bits....till next time.