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Re: Ten Things

Ok, this is cowardly but it balances out in a way, you see I was on myspace just now and read this girl's bulletin and it's where you post ten kinda messages things to ten different people in your life, but you dont tell the person that message is supposed to be aimed at and seeing as I saw it on myspace I really should be brave enough to post it on there
but I want to tell these people directly so I'll post it here. whic goes onto the whole coward thing because the people that I send these messages too won't actually read them but I'm giving names unlike that girl, whose is called Hollie

1) Hollie - hmm. Well first of all I want to say I hate you, but I really don't have a specific reason, just the things you have done and the way you have changed, this past year, I don't like it. I'm sorry.

2) Rach - ok, I miss you. I think I do now that I think about it. and I'm sorry that we're not really friends anymore, it just feels awkward. But thank you for being my friend all these years

3) Becca - I don't know what's happened but sometimes I still can feel the you that I loved before come out and I want to tell you that I don't like what you've turned into but whatever makes you happy I guess...

4) Laurie - I love you and thank you for being so kind to me and I'm sorry I gave that icing to Ellie, even thugh you're moving schools in september I will remember you and miss you terribly.

5) Amie - Thank you :D you mean a lot to me and I love you, I will miss you as well next year and I don't know what I'm going to do without you.

6) KW - Why do you confuse me so? I really like you and most of the time I really need you but I'm scared you will tell me that you meant none of it, that's why sometimes I really hate you. I really want to talk to you, but I'm afraid of making the same mistake and I can't let that happen again. And did you really mean it when you said we were best friends?

( I actually don't think I have anything else to say I don't have four more people in my mind that I need to tell them something. The other people in my life don't effect me in such ways that I cry over them, and yes I cried when I was typing the first 5. These days thinking of KW makes me stop crying, the thought of him made me stop crying or prevent myself from crying quite a few times that other day. ) And yes I want to take you to prom

So there you have it 6 probably the most important people in my life, well not so the first 3 because it's awkward. oh yeah I have one more.

7) Leon - ok I don't know you and I've never spoken to you but I've seen you around, were you in USC once when I was looking at the guys Tees? but you're going to school with me next year and Laruie has kinda offered me to go to prom with you as a date if you didn't know already. I'm not against going with you but will you be ok with it? I heard some chinese guys are totally fed up with getting paired up with the chinese girls, and I'm kinda the only one in my year :S Also if I do go to prom with you and we end up going out for some weird reason, it actually won't be too weird because from the looks of it you sound like a really cool guy, but anyways if we do go out and then break up in A Levels time then please don't make me want to stab you heart out and rip you to pieces because I don't want to be in pain. That's my only request.

Fagging prom is driving me crazy.