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 This blog thing is all new to me. I kinda decided that writing down all the random thoughts and feelings I have may help me become a better person....dont really know how or why I have come to this conclusion but it gives me something to do. A lot of my posts will probably come across as offensive, this is not deliberate (to a certain extent at least...) you see being a girl makes you a bitch. All girls know this but of course not all of us are willing to hold our hands up and admit to it. I however am proud of my bitchy trait, if I did not bitch I would have gone insane and killed someone by now in a sense being a bitch has saved me. Also - my bitchiness is basically a defense mechanism. To the untrained eye I come across as bold and brassy, a bit of a tough cookie, I stick up for myself and even more so for my friends. I like to think that what others think of me doesnt bother me but like everyone theres only so much criticism I can take before it starts to affect me at least a little bit. The basic point I am making here is that although I come across as harsh and at times probably quite nasty I am believe it or not a generally nice person. I do have feelings and Im not as touh as I like to make out. My life has been a bit of a rollercoaster, like many people I have been through some shit. But I truly believe that its made me stronger. I went through a phase of trying to deal with issues in many different ways and each one was equally as shite as the last. Two years ago, family-wise the shit hit the fan for me. I was going through a tough time and didnt know how to cope. It was at this time that a lot of my friends were in fact "friends" realising this didnt exactly help at the time but in the long run I guess I am better off. Anyway things started looking up and through uni etc I have been lucky enough to meet new people who are true friends. Each one is so individual but so important to me for different reasons. Of course we all piss each other off, we all have character flaws and once we are all living together I guarentee I will be posting rants about all of them at some point or another. As well as meeting these new friends, just over a year ago I changed friend groups after leaving school. To be honest the new friends were basicallty drinking buddies however I ended up dating a guy. Before long I realised that I felt things for this guy that I never thought I could feel. Unfortunately he is studying in a different city which makes things hard but when we can be we are never apart. We have been seeing each other officially for 11months now and my feelings for him just keep growing. Recently we went through a rough patch but it made us stronger. It made us both realise just how much we feel fo each other and as a result he proposed to me 3 days ago. I am offically the happiest I have ever been, Im loving wearing the ring and all my friends are over the moon. However, 11months. Its not that long, and at the age of 19 we both realise theres gonna criticisms and so on. The whole your too young, you havnt been together long enough. Therefore we still have the tiny issue of telling our parents.....dreading it. Do not know how they will react. In my opinion, why wait yes we have only been together 11months but at the end of the these have been the happiest 11months of my life. I cant imaginelife without him - I love him more than I could possibly love any other man. I want to spend the rest of my life with him, i want to finish uni then get married, get a place together have kids and grow old together. You never know whats gonna happen so I say you seize the moment. Currently we have been in drunken celebration mode with our friends.....however one way or another the rentals will have to find out I guess.........
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Posted by Beautiful_Disgrace on 2007-07-26 08:28:56 | Rating: | Views: 242
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congratulations on your engagement. live life to the fullest and don't look back.
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Posted by jason
on 2007-07-26 12:18:43
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Congrats! It's great that you've been able to find someone who's obviously so wonderful to and for you. My sister got married at 22, and if you can find true love at 22, you can find it at 19 :) Good luck!
Starfriend
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Posted by starfriend
on 2007-07-27 05:49:16
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