so. today is the day. your leaving. for almost 20 days. it doesnt seem like a lot, and at the same time it will feel like an eternity.

there is so much i want to say to you. so much i want you to hear. but everything ive thought of has slipped away.
i love you, beyond comprehension, and it will take everything i have to stay sane. i have so many fears. i fear that you'll leave and come back a totally different person. or that you'll decide to stay with your family. or that something will go wrong.

i hope none of these happen. i hope that a year from now we can look back and laugh at this. i love you. and ill miss you terribly. be careful. come home to me.