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I Have Settled.
I’m sorry to say I have settled. I don’t have any faith in men. I guess that derives from not having faith in myself. I don’t believe a man would want me for anything other than sex. In fact, I don’t give them the chance to prove otherwise. Perhaps subconsciously I am attracted to guys that only want to sleep with me because apart of me does not think I am worthy of a relationship. After my birthday I decided to take some time to myself to reflect on what my unfulfilled birthday wish indeed meant. I temporarily disconnected my cell phone so I would not be tempted to call for anyone’s opinion. For six months on several occasions I asked him to take me out to dinner. I even offered to pay. We never went out to dinner. It’s the little things that count and as I took time to reflect I should have known that he does not want to take our sexual relationship to any other level other than sexual no matter how small that level may be. I cried. I was sad. I am not ready to let him go but I am tired of giving someone my all and not even getting an inch in return. I just decided to give him what he wants. After all, our relationship is built on a one night stand. Maybe he just does not want to tell me I am not going to be more than a fuck and just a fuck is what I will be. I’ll just call him when I need my urges fulfilled and maybe slowly I will build enough faith to urge someone else.
Posted by BERTHA on 2007-12-27 11:41:50 | Rating: n/a | Views: 346


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Posted by
new_anonymous_teenage_girl
on 2007-12-27 20:31:24
 
The more you put yourself down, the less attractive you become. I'm sorry, it's harsh I know, but true! if you come across as confident and sure of yourself, you really do make people want to get to know you. Nobody is worthless, I went out with a guy who I thought like me - he was my first time, and after we broke up I felt like that was all he wanted, and it is all any men wanted. I then stopped looking for someone and gained confidence from my friends. I then started going out with someone who happened to be a good friend of mine and he appreciates me and respects me. Don't settle for anything other than happiness - convince people that you are attractive through your confidence and people will love you for it!
 
 

Posted by
ohjane
on 2007-12-28 00:50:11
 
is this the same guy who is married babe? bc if it is you must let him go i think a part of you knows that, that is what you need to do although u may not want to so you simply settle.DONT
 
 

Posted by
w0win33dh3r
on 2007-12-28 04:03:26
 
don't feel like that. never be down on yourself when its someone else's fault.you need to get with a man that is timid and will listen to you and what you want.you should give it a try
 
 

Posted by
Enanu
on 2007-12-28 09:11:07
 
oh chica, please dont settle!, You deserve better, you dont need him to give you power, you have it inside of you, just take the time to look.
 
 

Posted by
bronica
on 2007-12-29 15:46:09
 
I am older . I am in my 50 years old.And all I can find is some one that wanteds to sleep with you .
And not to get know you.
I have deside to take some time out and see what I need to work on to improve my self to get some one better in my life.

Bronica
 
 

Posted by
VANITYVONDARK
on 2008-01-01 14:19:47
 
in my opinion you need to love and respect your self, definitely before anyone else will. losers like that can sense insecurity , and your feeding him.a person will do to you what you let them do to you.You really shouldn't be looking to be with anyone until you like being with yourself first , I really don't want to come off as mean but...darling he won't come around , and the cycle isn't going to stop until you stop it.
 
 


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