Im on my lunch hour (which is only 30 min long. is there a such thing as lunch-half hour?), so this will likely be filled with typos and freudian slips, but Ive been doing far to much thinking lately and I need to empty my brain before it bursts...

Ive been rather excited lately about many things the last few weeks. I finally have a job, albeit temporary, that actually feels worth attending to, and is downtown.The people are friendly, and I actually have responsibilities! its a novelty thing.... Im sure that will wear off shortly haha.
and there's my gym membership, the wonders of Fall... (pumpkins, Halloween, Nuit Blanche- an all night arts event hosted across the city. Im hoping to get to writing about it in a blog but you know me, the ultimate procrastinator)
Then it hit me while reading the Kiterunner-an AMAZING read, that my privileged life leaves me nothing to be depressed over compared to the sickness, suffering and poverty imposed upon those in so many other countries, and even many in my own.
Im having one of those days where all my indulgences, even my job and meals, make me feel shallow and one-dimensional. How many blogs have I written boo hooing my circumstances or talked your ear off about some incidental event that will really have no impact upon my life??
What's more, for every blog I write, there are probably a dozen thoughts I compose throughout the day that lead me to go "ooh, I should blog about that!" but thankfully never (dis)grace the page.
Am I really that vapid??? UGH! I am thoroughly disgruntled with myself today and wish I could fix the woes of the world. I'm sure this sense of self-loathing will pass soon though.  Im not looking for a pep talk or anything... just a place to vent!

I've been meaning to find a meaningful volunteer opportunity, so perhaps I will find my answer in that. I reached out to a few places last week but was rejected on account of several factors or have not yet heard back.
Anyhow, thanks for reading. I have so many more things to say(well, most are pointless) but time has betrayed me again.

xo
~Azalia~