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I don't know what to do anymore.
School just ended and now it's summer, so I'm stuck at home. My parents decided to take a family trip with me, my brother, and the two of them all the way to Hong Kong, which is halfway across the world from where I'm at, Los Angeles. I thought this trip would be fun, especially since things at school have been getting worse. My "best friend" flirted so much with my boyfriend that he broke up with me. So I ditched my best friend, and since she was the most popular girl at school, I automatically lost the trust of all my other friends. So now, they talk to me but spill my secrets and are just plain bitchy.
So here I am in Hong Kong, sitting at the desk of our Peninsula Hotel suite room. My life is really bad right now. My mom is so obsessed with perfection, and she doesn't even talk to me. So much for a family trip? And my dad and my brother have gone off somewhere. My brother is a suck-up towards my parents but is SO mean to me behind their backs. I can't do anything about this, though, because my parents will ignore me or call me a liar. There seems to be nowhere to go, nowhere to run away to. So I've started cutting, after talking to one of my friends who's depressed. I have twelve slits on my wrist now. It calms me to look at them, because it lets me know I'm still alive.
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Posted by Avrilx on 2008-06-21 23:41:19 | Rating: | Views: 68
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hey avril! so i totally know where you're coming from. i use to suffer from an eating disorder and i also use to cut myself (i got help about a little over a year ago)...i freaking loved/hated cutting myself. you get some weird but amazing high from it and it just somehow makes things better for the moment. i'm not going to tell you to stop because i know that it's not that easy and you just cant really quit overnight. i am however, going to tell you that i'm willing to help you. i'll be like your support system/cheer squad haha!...if you need ever need it! i'm always ready to talk or ever just listen. just let me know! :)
.....ps....things will get better but it's gonna take time
xoxo
Ash
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Posted by ashton3
on 2008-06-22 20:23:45
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i feel for you.
all of my friends won't be here this summer, cause their going to sumer camp. and only one of my good friends is staying here, and she totally ditched me today.
what am i going to do all summer?
i wan't to cut really bad, but im so scared people will see my scars.
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Posted by sarahh
on 2008-06-23 00:41:46
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