ur mind plays tricks to what u really want

what do you mean?

think of ur mind as a game. in a game u pic the player u want . in ur mind u make ur player what u want . people isolate themselves because they feel they want too be left alone but in reality they want someone there too talk to . you could be in a room all alone and feel like ur crowded with people because ur mind tells u so . mirrors are traps. u look in to a mirror and what do u see?

No you don't... You don't make your player.

I know what you mean with this, because I used to tell people the exact same thing: That being happy was entirely up to them. And it seemed to work for them, and of course I'm glad and happy it did, but when I tried applying that to myself, I realized I couldn't do it...

Sometimes you just feel something and you can't wish it away. Sometimes there's pain that you just can't fake not feeling. Like when someone betrays you, or abandons you or hurts you in any way you would never expect from that person... I think of the mind more as a limb: If you cut it, it will hurt! But sooner or later it'll heal and scar...

I don't isolate myself because I want to. In fact, if you ask anyone in that "mirror", they'd tell you I don't isolate myself at all! But that wasn't the kind of isolation I meant. I was referring to a deeper isolation. The kind in which you have tons of friends, yet can't rely on them. Maybe not even because they don't inspire trust, but because I just CAN'T open up the way I'd wish to. I guess it's a hard thing to make sense out of when you are as happy as to believe you can control your every emotion [it certainly was for me], but now I really get it...

Ashley
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However, the mind is not a game. In life you can not pick your own player, in life you are who you were born to be. People sometimes isolate themselves because they do not know how to fit in and feel as though they will always be the outcast. They think that they must change to fit in and therefore are led to fake a personality and convince themselves they are who they arent.

The mirror in her poem was meant to represent what is there and what is merely seen. Though she is surrounded by people, she can only see herself. Thought she is surrounded by people, she is still alone.

So much meaning behind your words. I am very impressed.
Amazing.

Thank you!! And it's really cool you could sort of see what I really meant by the poem!! ^^^ Cheers!! =]

Ashley
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