I'm arin.. and i am new member to thoughts.com.. seriously for like 30 seconds. haha but anyways. my i guess you could say boyfriend and i have been dating off and on since 6th grade. we're really close and he's one of the only guys ive really really liked. and well things arent going so good this time. in someways they are going great.. hes so sweet and i cant go a day without thinking about him. but i know God should be number one in my life and when i'm with kris im not so sure he is as sad as that is. but i love God and know that he is above all things, AND PEOPLE. sometimes i just have a hard time remembering. One night not too long ago i went to a friends party and kris and i had a misunderstanding and he got very upset and decided to drink a few too many drinks and make out with a girl, his ex to be exact. and ive screwed up with him uncountable times so i couldnt say much after he begged for forgiveness. he's a great guy and i know he wouldnt do it again. he was supposed to call me today and i waited and waited (big mistake.. note to self:never depend on a guy to call) but after the waiting i decided i would take things into my hands and call him. he decided to go out to the ranch with "the guys" and do who knows what. its just sad to think that he would rather hang out with his guy friends than me. but i do know friends come first which is why before this took place i went and ate with my girls. my ex bfffffff marla was there and things have gotten rusty between us. while we were eating she decided to text the whole table i was at (while she was sitting across from me) and asked them to spend the night. then she texted all of them and said "arins the only one thats not invited." i dont get it. why me? why do i have to be a girl thats loaded with the drama? my friends which are closer with me than marla told me they werent going if i wasnt invited and not to get sad. wow arent they great? i think so. actually, i know so. but i didnt give them a choice and made them go. thats when i called kris i mean chicks before dicks right? well.. he OF COURSE was going to hang with the guys which leaved me here home alone. to discover THOUGHTS.COM.. so theres my story. i would love people to comment or whatever this business is called. BYE:)