today has been a strange sort of day...good and sad at the same time.  i wanted to write down these things so i wouldn't forget.

this morning, i came to work late b/c i had a drs appt.  i work downtown and it is pretty typical to wait for the light to change to cross the road.  standing there, i noticed a funeral procession coming.  i had time to cross the street before it got to where i was and i had the light, but i thought i would stand out of respect for the family.  as it passed, i just started crying.  right there on the street.  i was in a good mood and i still am.  i guess it's just been a tough week thinking of my mom and all.  and it was a short procession and that made me sad too.  my husband said that maybe it was someone who was old and everyone who would've come had already died.  that made me sad.  lol...i am just a sad sack. 

my best work pal always brings me her UK wildcats bracelet for me to where right before a game.  i don't keep up with that kind of thing b/c i am not a sports person, but i do like participating in our work tailgating parties and stuff.  today, she said she wanted me to keep the bracelet.  i just thought that was so sweet of her.

earlier in the week, i brought my teenager with me to work.  most everyone here knows him already but there was one lady who had never met him.  today she told me what a sweet kid he is and how he just smiled when everyone was talking to him about me.  she said, 'he reminds me of you, how sweet you are.'  i just started crying again!  he's better than me.  he is such a good kid, and i couldn't be prouder of him.  anyway, she hugged me.

last night, i was talking to jake, the teenager, about not doing stupid shit, like this choking each other thing to get a high that people are doing.  he just looked at me, hugged me and said, 'it must be hard being a parent, worrying about stuff like that.'  see?  see what a sweetie he is?  instead of rolling his eyes at me, instead of getting defensive, he emphathizes with me.  he always asks how i am doing.  he always asks about my day. he always meets me at the door when i come home from work.  and he's not a geek either.  lol..he is a cool kid, lots of friends.  he's just good, has a good heart. 

i'm a lucky mom.  very very lucky mom.