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Well here is my second post on my new blog in the same day. I am home not working just trying to "find" myself so to speak am I lost not sure. More to the point I am floundering at the moment no sense of certainty exists. I know what I want to do just need to work on getting there. I had a conversation with myself earlier today it goes something like what you see below: Me - I am scared. ALL - of what? Me - annihalation All - a word with no truth? Me - it is a real state? All - a real state in the sense that it really really occurs? Me - it can happen I can be lost. All - how do you get lost? Me - when I let go of everything? All - then where would you be? Me - no where that is my point I will be lost. All - you haven't told me where lost is as yet? Me - missing from the society I live in existing and functioning outside of the parameters All - is there such a place? Me - well yes look at homeless people they are outside of societal boundaries. All - but where are they outside? Me - not working within the rules just existing on others scraps not part of society lost All - do you see them? Me - yes All then they are not lost? Me - but I have responsibilites I cannot abandon my family to do whatever I please. All - who said you need to? Me - well if I was to pursue lets say my creative dreams the longing of my heart there is no profit in this All - those who have become the most prosperous in all areas of there lives where those who pursued there dreams with passion and joy Me - then what is holding me back? All - your fear, shame, guilt, manipulations, pretence thoughts Me - how do I begin to change this All - you change it Me - but how? All - think about love hope prosperity generousity loving kindness dreams smiles life love light 24/7 Me - thats it? All - thats it! Thats it? Well there may be a bit more to this journey because I just thought it however that is it in a nutshell. Next steps let's see what this all means and how it can be broken down into the realtime practical world.