I don't think I have ever just let loose, blogged whatever it was that I am thinking. Maybe I should start.

Last night I went to my friend's Quinceañera which I am told was informal. It was in her garage and we danced and ate and generally had fun.

I am going to be competing at the DECA state conferenece later this month. I will be presenting a manual on opening a Dunkin' Donuts franchise in Seattle Washington. I will also be participating in role plays and a 100 question test on Retail Marketing Management level. I am so excited to be out of the house in the big city for a few days. I am also excited to show off all the hard work I have been doing.

So Valentines Day is coming up. I am going to be alone. Last year I had someone but that was short lived and stupid as hell. The one person I like this year doesn't like me (I have told him and he said he isn't interested) but I am still hoplessly optomistic that someone will ask me out or something on the big V day. Though in the back of my mind I doubt it, nice thoughts like that keep me sane. How come on TV women always seem to have an endless amount of men following them even when they are just "normal" not even hot? I am pretty but no boys or girls like me... maybe I am the only one that thinks I am. *shrug*

I used to love my best friend but I recently realized that he isn't worth it and that I was making an ass out of myself by chasing after him. He is a great person but so not worth all of my thoughts and aspirations for the future if he doesn't even feel the same way. I really wish I had someone though, even if it is really that serious I would love to have a boyfriend or girlfriend. I just can't seem to find anyone I would be willing to go out with that would want to go out with me.

I have realized something, I really don't care about my sexuality anymore. It doesn't matter to me where I find love be it a man or a woman, I am open to anything... except older people, children, and animals.

Am I the only one who has noticed that cartoons can be really disturbing? I am talking about Cartoon Network when it is targeted at kids (Not Adult Swim). It is usually imagry that I really can't explain though, maybe I am just used to the days where cartoons weren't freaking creepy. (I am talking about The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy, My Gym Partner is a Monkey, Courage the Cowerdly Dog, ect)

I have been thinking about pregnancy and childbirth a lot lately. Mostly what I would do if I got pregnant right now and I think that I would probably try to raise it myself. Something about abortion just feels wrong same with adoption, but I guess I will have to make my choice between the three if the situation ever rises. I think that pregnancy is a beautiful thing and I really want to go through one naturally and raise my kid more naturally. By that I mean by breastfeeding, baby wearing, cloth diapers, ect. I really think that I would be a good mom someday but I am not sure if I am ready and I don't think I will ever be until I actually get pregnant.

I really should be doing my Geometry and Spanish HW right now as I have had a 3 day weekend to do it. I will do it once I am done randomly typing. Right now I am watching Ed, Edd, and Eddy because nothing is ever on.

I think that the new "explicit content" warning is okay but I really don't care to be honest. I bet this blog will be flagged or whatever because I am sure I swore some where back there.

I have been swearing since I was like in the 3rd grade and didn't really satart using the "f" word until I was in 7th.

My best friend really doesn't use the "f" word and niether do my parents now that I think about it. They only receltly (within the past few years) started too and it is only when they are really upset.

I think I am going to put on some music later and dance a bit for some exercise.

I got Across the Universe on DVD and I think it is pretty awesome! I love that movie. Too bad I am outta cash now. Haha.

I really like this guy too. He is hot (no one else does) because he is skinny, short, has glasses, great eyes and jaw. OMG. So hot. *drolls* I love skinny "dorky" boys. Ahhh. He has a great sense of humor, an interesting way of seeing the world, is down to earth, intelligent, interesting, and... hot. So maybe it is lust... but who gives a fuck? =D

Okay well I think that is all I have to say and I am not worrying about spelling, fuck it.

I hope you all have had a nice past few weeks!!!