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I think i'm going to conduct an experiment to see what it is about some people that makes them better able to assimilate? Me, i'm horrible at assimilation. I'm a fantastic actress, a great player of the never ending role that is my life, though i could never assimilate. I mistook their ignorance and hatred for a fault upon my character, a hole in the script. I was wrong. Why is it some people can assimilate so easily, while stil others struggle no matter the situation. Others who feel uncomfortablilty even in their own homes? PEOPLE wwho can't even feel comfort within themselves? WHta bout these people who fail miserably at making eevryone happy? The people who don't have such grand social graces? IS it a matter of personality? Of likeable people versus non? good vibes versus bad? Humor versus intelligence? Or is it ignorance versus confusion? Someone who knows not who they are, and in that delicate process of discovery find an anger and a sadness felt by every human being who has ever felt the pang of lonliness. These people are truly alone, within themselves and society. They seek isolation becuase it is all they know. It is a way of life. Their way of life. Many a time it has been when i'd rather stay home alone in my room with my music than to feel the social awkwardness often accompanied by a social event of some kind. And many a time after wards i felt the pang of idiocy and naivete when i'm told my wishes to keep the company of no one are wrong and "antisocial", which i'm discovering to be a social evil. During the deilcate process of social/personality developement, when these people's growth is so severly stunted by peer pressure and social expectations, by ignorance and confusion, are they stunted for life? Will i never be cured?
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Posted by Angel_BM21 on 2008-01-24 14:36:29 | Rating: | Views: 72
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