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abusive boyfriend =( i don't know what to do?
my mum always says guys only want one thing. i always thought that was a little low and very offensive for the nice guys out there. well maybe she is right. there are always the guys that are straight out i want sex and thats it, i guess they are honest. but is there actually guys out there that don't think about sex all the time? the thing that has got me thinking about this is not long ago i was in a pretty abusive relationship with my boyfriend he's 17 and im 14. he would make me have sex with him and other sexual things all the time. if i said no he would really hurt me. it got so bad that i had to come up with the stupidest excuses for why i have so many brusies. im not with him anymore but he still does it very often. i'm really scared of him and he said that there is nothing i can do because he works for bikies and they will get him out of trouble with the cops or if i get another guy to stop him from touching me that the guy would get killed. i use to be a pretty good kid but he has changed me so much. im always in trouble at school and im failing every class. i started taking drugs. everyone has noticed how much i have changed and alot of people hate me now. my grandma talked to me not long ago saying that they didn't know what to do with me and that my mum would usually ring her crying. she even asked me if i had been raped or if there is anything i need to tell her. i know that what i am doing is destroying my life and my family but i can't help it. i wish they knew what i have to go though but i can't tell them. sometimes i think what this guy does to me is what i deserve. he ever has all these rules for me like.. i don't talk while having sex...i can't put on any weight...i do what he says or i get hurt..i have to send him naked pictures of me everyday and he does what he wants with them..he will record us having sex and if i do anything wrong it gets send to everyone he knows...he even lets his friends have sex with me and do other things like that.all of that and i still feel like im not good enough for him. whats wrong with me? i just don't know what to do.
Posted by Amber_bamba on 2009-06-03 03:41:59 | Rating: | Views: 161