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| can things just be good already? please? |
i dont know if i can do it anymore... i've been back home for a week, and i already dread having to come here.. im tired of having to check in, and not have a bed (im sleeping on the couch), not having anywhere to put my things... im literally living out of boxes and bags.. but i cant afford to live anywhere else.. it sucks.
i havent been able to eat lately... everything sounds gross. i start feeling sick or full after a few bites.... i ate one chicken strip for lunch with a handfull of fries and couldnt eat anymore. that was 7 hours ago, and im still not hungry. i have no appitiete.. i dont know why.. i feel ok with my breakup.. im the one that ended it, and i know it was for the best... but i cant eat. i've lost weight. my jeans are all big on me now...
and i have a new guy im interested in.. we hung out last night and had fun... but he was kind of drunk (tipsy for sure), and i just could not get turned on enough to have sex... even though i really wanted it... so now i feel horrible and embarassed..
im just tired of it all.. im tired of everything looking down for me... i want to be happy again. i want to have good sex, and have a place of my own so that i can have my own bed and not have to live out of boxes. is that so bad? is it too much to want?
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Posted by AlyssaReid on 2009-11-06 22:50:04 | Rating: | Views: 10
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