i sure that it seems impossible to be able to connect to these people right now...but if its alright...i'd like to humbly share some things to think about... that may help.try...

being the love that you're wanting to see in others

offering the connection (no matter how initially awkward) that you crave

assume that what you had taken to be as hatred or coldness in other people's eyes, is really their own immense internal pain.

much like your own...

I'm sending you my love

and this may not be what sounds good right now...but,
i see you being able to transform your, very real and justified pain, into the power to help these people... which will start to heal you...
fill you
with the love that flows in you

I think you are much older in your mind than your peers.
You have very deep thoughts for your age...most young people only think in terms of dating and fun.
I think you are mature way beyond your years.
We all go through a time in life where we look for meaning in life. Usually most do it in their mid thirties and beyond. Very few start young....like you and me.
I have been questioning life since I was a child.
You have a very creative mind...I remember your time entry...you give life much thought.
I think you are so frustrated, because you feel that no one understands you.
You feel alone in the world...even in a room full of people.
You are not alone.
We are all here together.
I know what is like to be you.
Because in a sense...we are each other.
We both know how it feels to be human.
You are not alone...never have been.
You do matter.
You now matter to me....very much.
You remind me of a beautiful girl I once knew.
I mothered her from 7th grade til her Junior year....her mother died when she was 5.
You have that same loveliness about you.
A beautiful lonely heart.
Her name was Grace....and you even look like her.
Smile for me beautiful girl...even if you do not mean it.
Someone does understand you.
You are here for a purpose...that purpose is ...to Live...
and to find Love.

Yes,DS is right.She is also my teacher.I leart love from her.And i'm still learning.Learning from her has become one of the most parts of my life.Listen to her,do as she had told you.You won't lose your way...By the way,i want to ask:what on earth made this situation happen?Did you do something wrong which cause these problems?Maybe you should show your love to others,which would always help.just as you have done on thoughs to others.In a world,you love them,they will love you in return.

thank u all for the comments..i have happy tears..*hug*

There's a look in your eye and a vibe in your stars. It says, "Don't bother me. Don't violate my privacy. Don't hurt me." When an animal looks afraid, other animals stay away--unless they are predators and see that animal as an easy mark. While some may be afraid to approach you out of fear of setting off explosives, others may just be afraid they might hurt you or themselves as well. I think of how many in my class relied on drugs or cigarettes/drinking illegally to get through school years while I avoided all that and dealt with the stress best I could.

In astrology, you are a Virgo(western) born a Dragon year(chinese). You are a hard working person who, like other virgos, works to eliminate the impurities of life to simplify it.

I went through many of the same difficulties you have mentioned. And, like DS said, I too have been told I think and thought older than my age...that I have an old spirit. You can take that however you want to, but at your age, it just clouds the mind. And, since you are seeking a simple solution and life, I can only hope you find it.

Don't sacrifice your nature just because you feel left out or out of place. Once you change who you are--or change how people see you without growing into that image first--you create a fragile coating which can crack and leave you more fractured and confused. Know thy self, know thy enemy and become fearless(like that jet li movie by that name).

There IS something to consider that has been said and will be heard by you often. One can wait for things to come their way or make the effort themselves. It's an archaic idea that women are princesses in the castle and men are the princes to rescue them. I would have been elated if someone like you had approached me in High School and offered to be my friend. Instead, I had a class of people sleeping with each other who drifted away because they thought I had an ego problem for not being like them. They voted me most likely to become a priest.

Think about it.

Just thinking of you.
I hope all is well for you.

I swear I posted comments...and yet there are none...I even remember typing, and thinking about what to tell you..and yet they have disappeared...hmmm...write something new so I can teach this blog a good lesson.

I know exactly how you feel. I also cant seem to connect with my peers. They seem so diffrent than me. I also hate school way to much drama. What I really want to do is homeschool.

I left you a comment back.
Peace sweet girl.