I haven't written in awhile. I probably should have, because now I have a whole bunch of stuff in my head all competing for attention, and as one comes to the front I forget something else. It's absolute chaos.
Well, let's see. I'm in this real interesting place where nothing really matters right now. Nothing I do matters, nothing anyone else does matters, and even existance itself is pointless. No, this is not a rant about how I've gone suicidal. I have not. But rather, I was watching the Watchmen, and Dr. Manhattan makes a very good point about how the existance of life itself is irrelevant and overrated. I mean, any viewpoint that is held on the subject is clouded by human bias, but if you really think about it, life is not important. Things exist just fine without the existance of life, such as on Mars. Even if every single living thing were to perish, other things will go on, and what will happen then would only be change. Not change for the better or worse, because those are human distinctions that require live humans to make them, but simply change in general. But I've taken this a bit further and wondered, why would non-living things need to exist either? Why would it matter if everything disappeared into some vast and yet infintesimal void, because it is impossible to measure nothingness, or for humans to even truly concieve it.
Ok, onto less philosophical subjects. I'm a little irritated because my friend(whom I shall refer to as G) has recently gained a boyfriend. Now, I KNOW that I should be happy for her, and to a certain extend I am. But my patience becomes very thin when I'm trying to talk to her, and she's too busy sucking her boyfriend's face off. I just got used to her being single, and now I have to learn to share again. It doesn't help that she found a new guy so quickly after her old guy dumped her, while I'm still hunting high and low for someone to show just a bit of interest that I wouldn't mind smooching(because the only ones interested are dogs, either physically or mentally). Yes, I'm jealous. I'm petty and human, so this is understandable. Ah well, I'll get over it.
:D I have a new computer. My old one died, so I got this one. it's not even one of the best ones, but I love it! The keyboards still has all of the keys intact, the moniter is HUGE and I can game to my hearts content. my favorite MMORPG right now is Rappelz. Not only does it have excellent graphics and good quests, but it's free, and has a built-in anti-virus!! So yeah, loving that right now. The cool thing about this computer is that later, we can upgrade it from 8 gigs to 16 gigs to put more games like Sims3 and WOW on it! Yes, I'm a big dork, sue me.
K, that's all I can think of for now. ta-ta!
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