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Old story
I found this in an old folder on my computer. I apparently wrote it in 2008- and I can tell it was a while ago because (1) I had completely forgotten about it and (2) my writing style has changed. Upon reading it I had to wonder if all my old stories are about near-suicides and jumping off......Read More

Posted on: 2010-02-04 15:25:39 | Rating:

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Why
I can do this. I can do this, and that's what sucks. I have no reason to run, no excuse. Why am I strong? Why is it that I can handle these things? Why must I be the one to have strength? Can't I be like the other girls? Small and tiny and weak and allowed to ask for things I now......Read More

Posted on: 2010-02-03 02:47:40 | Rating:

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Requirements
Every once in a while I have a crazy idea that turns into a blog post. This will be one of them. List of requirements I've given God for my husband (not that He'll listen. I mean, since when did HE listen to ME? It's probably a good thing though) : Cody-style hugs Josh......Read More

Posted on: 2010-02-02 17:23:21 | Rating:

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I'm Amazed
I used to leave my house maybe once a month. Friends? I had one. Two if you count God. Now, I have people I love so much I can't believe it. The thought of them makes my chest tight. My arms ache because they aren't there to hug/glomp/full-out-tackle. I have tiny peoples and big peoples and......Read More

Posted on: 2010-02-01 20:45:44 | Rating:

| Views: 26 | Comments: 2 | Tags: friends

Things that make me laugh
Things that make me laugh- my view numbers on this blog. I bet more than half of them are myself. confused fluffy animals. Doesn't matter if it's as big as a panda or as small as a dog, the moment they don't understand what's happening, I'm amused. my tiny friends when......Read More

Posted on: 2010-01-20 15:18:31 | Rating:

| Views: 26 | Comments: 2 | Tags: things that make me laugh

Friends
You know those "How on earth are you friends with me? Why are you friends with me? You should totally get rid of me and have cooler friends!" moments? I try to stay away from them, because I know how hard it is to be friends with someone who has low self-esteem and is constantly......Read More

Posted on: 2010-01-12 21:08:00 | Rating:

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Complaining
I'm currently eating an ever-so-scrumptious dinner of rice wrap and lettuce. My head hurts, my body hurts, I'm stuffed up and have a sore throat. And my mother decides "oh, my daughter's sick, and can't eat dairy and all sounds hurt. This is obviously the perfect time to have nachos......Read More

Posted on: 2010-01-07 20:49:43 | Rating:

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Some stuff I know/have decided.
{Written Dec 13. Transcribed today. Notes from today will be in these brackets.} I've been praying about something for some time now, and tonight a certain conversation sparked a final burst of thought and prayer, and therefore a conclusion. First, however, let me lay out the facts......Read More

Posted on: 2009-12-14 21:44:46 | Rating:

| Views: 44 | Comments: 2 | Tags: Love God Relationships

WON!
Hello, everyone in the blogging community! GUESS WHO WON NANOWRIMO! AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I'm dying of awesomeshock. And caffeine overdose. dances Ok. Just thought I'd share my happy high with you all. ...Read More

Posted on: 2009-11-30 23:13:17 | Rating:

| Views: 33 | Comments: 2 | Tags: National Novel Writing Month NaNoWriMo WON!

Time
It's not Now that scares me. It's Then. That Time in the Future when nothing gets better. I've given up on better, I guess. I don't see a light at the end of this tunnel. I just see Life; and while Life may be a good word to some, a word with happiness and green and growth, all I......Read More