I want to tell him. I want to say I love you.  I wish is was that simple.  I can talk to him about anything and everything but this one thing. I can't get my self to say it.  I'm too afraid. I wish I wasn't afraid.  Every time he leaves under my breath i say it. every time I get off the phone with him after I  know he isn't going to hear it I say it.   Why am I so afraid of saying it. I've never had a problem saying to the other guys that I thought that I loved.  Why is this one so different.  When he's around I feel completely safe. but yet I can't tell him.  I want more from him. every time that I have tried I never actually get any of the words out.  He asks me what's on my mind and I tell him everything but the one thing I want to tell him.