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At my Mom. This evening. It wasn't good.
It started with this cat box. I mean its what pushed me over the edge. I bought a big cardboard box for my barn cats for this winter, well I had an idea to buy an action packer and fome the inside of to be warm, my Dad completely dismissed the idea and got agnry and stated that cardboard is better and that board fome will work better. I believe my Dad, I can step back from any situation and tell myself "he knows more than me", I've always been good at listening, taking instruction that sort of thing. Well what upset me about that is that he didn't even consider the idea I had been thinking about for awhile. Well my Mom was yelling at me today because the box has been sitting in the same spot for the last week. Heres the thing that just "AGH"'d me. The whole "my idea" thing was so that I could do it and just get it done without having to rely on my dad to cute fome/build something/yadayada and he just pff blew it away. Well I don't know where the fome is I can't cut it - I could do the other thing.
EVERYTHING in my life - rely's on my parents. College. Trying to enroll in Ivy Tech currently for spring semester so I can do double credit. My Mom has to take care of it. Meanwhile I'm freaking out because of their Compass test I can NO way do the algebra section of it because I'm kinda just abit slightly retarted when it comes to math - and technically I haven't even completed highscool algebra so and its been our plan all along for me to do Double Credit and go into college as a sophmore well now theres a very good chance thats not going to happen and again FREAKING out because I'm one of those people that has to think about things for along time before anything happens and I need to I have to think and my plan is falling away very quickly.
AND. Its a ton of little stuff I can't do anything except wait for my parents to get around to it I feel like I have no control over my life I'm having alot of problems with Lindsey and I think I'm going to go smoke one of my stashed cigars because I AM having a slow heart attack at the age of 16.
Its just I know that EVERYTHING I do know will effect my life later and I can't get these things done quickly enough.
Oh and The Revalation (thats what I'm calling it because since I've figured this out I've been really working at school and doing practice SAT questions everyday and if you knew me this is very weird because I hate school) that if I don't do FUCKING AMAZING - I'm talking 1300 and above on the SAT's or my parents are screwed - they'll have to work for the rest of their lives to get me through school and not going to college is not an option to me or my Mom.
breathhhh breathingg.
And I blew up at my Mom over the cat house. Thats what she thinks. There as you can tell are alot of underlying issues that were really the cause.
I need a hug.
Or a drink.
A hug would be better but I can settle.
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Posted by Acre on 2007-12-21 21:50:44 | Rating: | Views: 72
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Relying on others sucks! You are always let down. And if you are lucky enough not to be let down...WOOHOO! Enjoy it!
*HUG*
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Posted by Brokenhearted
on 2007-12-21 21:56:44
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I wish I could give ya a hug. I need one myself. :-/ Just stay calm with all this stuff and I'm sure you'll be alright. And if you need help with Algebra, let me know. I'm sort of a genius when it comes to math. :-)
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Posted by crash413
on 2007-12-21 22:17:28
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::Huggs::
:0)
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Posted by LadiLucifer
on 2007-12-28 08:37:47
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