32211 Blog Feed: AcidRayne 2008-06-17 07:06:03 AcidRayne Your e-mail address 82490 2008-04-02 20:50:00 KK. So I've been thinking a lot...yes it hurt...anyways our society is all about thin women, right? ( Not to say that women with flubber aren't pretty too!! 0.0 ^^) Anyways guys tend to err towards the thinner women to stare at and use as porn stars. These guys do not like fat, correct?

Then why, oh why are they fascinated with breasts. All breasts are are lumps of fat!! ( and no I didn't mistype that 'are' should be used twice in the sentence, thank you very much, microsoft word).
So if fat = ugly why do breasts = sexy?

]]> 67927 2008-02-25 01:40:53 It amuses me how much stuff is free out there, what amuses me even more is that in our money hoarding society this stuff actually is completley free to us. Not one of those: "Here's a free phone, and now give us fifty bucks a month to use it" scenarios, but truly free.

I mean why pay to use any microsoft e-mail program when you've got Mozilla Thunderbird for free. Or need to upgrade your internet explorer? Don't pay, use Mozilla Firefox.
Does your office run on Office 2007, but you have an older version at home? No problem, use google Docs.

My absolute favorite is Goog-411. Normally when you use a 411 service you're charged anywhere from $.75 to $1.75 for the call, Goog-411 is completley free beyond the general costs to use your phone.

The big question is why is this stuff free?
In essence it isn't really, but it is to the specific user. Why? Because the companies producing the free stuff is selling us to the advertiser, so the advertiser pays for our free stuff.

For example Google is free to us right? You don't pay any sort of fee to type in "www.google.com" and use the search engine, right? This is because of all those adds you see on the side of your screen. Google sells us to those advertisers and therefore the advertisers pay for us to use the search engine.

Companies are slowly starting to realize that by giving stuff away to the consumer they can make money in other ways. But not just through advertisers. For example you can fly from Dublin, England to Barcelona, Spain for 20$, in relaity this ticket costs 70$ how does the company not lose money?

Charge people for other things of course.

Say you ONLY buy the ticket. You don't check baggage, you bring your own food, or don't eat anything, you don't have a kid with you...YOU are only spenind 20$.

Meanwhile another person is spending 30$ per piece for their five piece luggage set and they bought three water bottles at 3$ a bottle and they have a little kid who costs them extra....

See, that other person paid for you flight to Barcelona. Isn't that cool?

Anyways in short: The next time you visit a website with lots of add banners, don't complain, those advertisers are paying for your basic internet useage.

(YAY FREE DEVIANTART!)
]]> 60628 2008-02-07 21:10:25 ....I've just been really sick. I had fluid in my ears and lungs, but I'm okay now.

Also I just found out that THE WASHINGTON CAPS ARE IN FIRST PLACE!!! If they hold onto that they're going to the playoffs!!! The scary thing though is that they're only one point ahead of Atlanta and Carolina, they play Carolina next, if they win that'll secure them the lead for a while. But I have to say I'm really proud of the Caps and of Boudreau, he's the best thing that's happened to the Caps in years.

Now, because I'm still too sick to really rant, I think i'm going to try my hand at explaining "the feeling" that hockey players get when they really click with their teammates. It's really hard to explain, and I don't know if this happens in other team sports because I really only play ice hockey seriously.

Anyways "the feeling" is where you click with your teammates. Meaning you meld with your teammates so seamlessly that you never have to look for your mate, they're just there, you don't have to think to pass to them you just do it and you know that they'll be there to pick up the puck. Sometimes it takes time for this to happen, other times you click with your teammates almost immedieatly, but when it does happen you know.

I recently clicked with one of my own teammates and now we play on the same lineup all the time and our coaches don't have to worry that we won't work together, we just automatically do. It's an incredible feeling when you click with a teammate and it definetly makes the game a lot more fun.

I think that was what we lost this year and why we had a losing season. Some of us clicked together, but not all of us did like we did last year. Hopefully we'll fix that next year.

Anyways, everyone go watch Miracle because it's the greatest moment in sports history!

]]> 57022 2008-01-29 21:35:00 For people who know me, the statement that I’m not a fan of a lot of “classic” literature is a common place in my world. This is simply because it’s true, I really don’t. And it took me a while to figure out why. I was reading the latest issue of WIRED (16.02) and I came across and article that finally opened my eyes to why I feel the way I do.

Basically the reason why I don’t like MODERN literature is because it’s repetitive. It’s all been done before. I mean there is only so many times I can read about Joe Schmoe living an ordinary life, having an ordinary relationship with ordinary sex, meantime maintaining an ordinary job and dying an ordinary death. There is the definite possibility we have taken every option available to describing everyday life an exhausted then. And I do believe this HAS happened.

So where do I turn?

SciFi and fantasy mostly. Both genres explore the possibility of what would happen if you added a factor unknown to the world. These books have infinite possibilities simple because we don’t really know what would happen if say…everything in the world could be copied like Mp3 files. Anyone know?…didn’t thinks o. But people are always willing to try like in Cory Doctorow’s After the Siege novella. But while one person may have all ready written something about the subject, the story idea has not been exhausted because there are 1000+ new ways to tackle the idea. And as long as the stories are well written you probably won’t get bored.

SciFi especially is the though provoking genre of today. Joe Schmoe’s monotonous life doesn’t make people think at all, but Captain so-and-so of the ship <insert cool name here> saving the world from alien invasion is not only thought provoking, but exciting. Exciting makes people read more, when people read more they become better educated, when that happens everyone wins. GLEE!

Now as for why I’m not particularly fond of “classic” literature:
It’s because it’s over analyzed. I mean, I don’t honestly believe that most of the stuff my teachers tell me that the author has consciously put into a book was actually purposely put in there. And even if it is, more often than not it is so outdated that it doesn’t really relate to me and then I no longer care. Sorry to disappoint people…but it’s the truth.

The even if I wanted to read the book for fun, the teachers tell me that I HAVE to read the book and then give me a time limit. That turns me off completely. I don’t want to be told I have to do anything, and forcing me to read it in a certain amount of time doesn’t give me the opportunity to get into a book I might have otherwise enjoyed. I’ve noticed through survey of my friend, peers, and the adults around me, that most people wouldn’t read any of these “classic” books if the weren’t forced to. I wonder what that says about the books.

Of course this isn’t to say that I don’t like any “classic” books, I am in fact a huge fan of The Catcher in the Rye. But I just think that so many of them are overrated.

Your thoughts?

Love,
AcidRayne

]]> 55172 2008-01-25 21:56:42 So we just lost ANOTHER game.

This time 9-0. Since I was sick and not in school today I wasn't allowed to play, but I was allowed to be bench manager, and in between giving one of my teammates medical attention, attempting to coax an edge out of another teammate's skate and making sure water got to all the people who needed it I got the chance to REALLY watch my team play. And oh god do I wish I hadn't been givent he opportunity.

It's not that we're a team of bad hockey players, we really aren't. We're a team of good hockey players that haven't synchronized ourselves to each other yet. I just wish I couldn've been the one to tell my team what was wrong, because I saw stuff our coaches didn't see. I kept it to myself, of course, I didn't want to incur my coaches wrath. But I think our biggest problem is we've got a team full of centers, and not enough wingers.

One of our biggest problems is that we don't have enough practice time. The school will only give us so much money and our genius mangers decided to waste it on games. That might have worked with last years team, but so many players graduated last year that we're basically a brand new team. To make matters worse next year ice time is going up by 20 bucks and hour (from 245$/hr to 265$/hr) and the school won't fork over more money. So now it seems as though it's up to me to jump in and set up some fundraisers (sure, leave it to the only girl *sigh* men). Our goal is 2000$ which shouldn't be too hard to raise if we can get the boys to go for it.
To top it all of the school's going to try and force us to move up to tier 1 next year (Varisty, we're tier II right now, Jr Varsity). Where Gonzaga will (to use my current team Captain's words) Anally rape us, then take our heads, put them on our sticks and display them to the world to see why JV teams shouldn't move up before they're ready.

The good thing is that my work on extending our season for two months makes me look good for the position of Captain. Yay! If I get the position I'll be the first girl captain my ice hockey team's ever had! GLEE!! This'll make me look good for University of California, Pennsylvania, and it'll make me look really good to their hockey team!

Ah well, I shan't bother you with my problems anymore,

with love,
AcidRayne

]]> 54723 2008-01-24 22:00:12 So right now I'm in the middle of a terrible flu, I'm having lovely fever induced hallucinations on and off, the Caps just won against the Maple Leafs, I'm on heavy painkillers, and I also have to write a paper due tomorrow.

THAT'S RIGHT: PAPER DUE TOMORROW! I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF FEVER INDUCED DELIRIUM AND MY TEACHER WON'T GIVE ME AN EXTENSION.

Call me weird or whatever but shouldn't someone be given some slack when for the past several days they've been sick and unable to complete any work? I don't think that it's right for someone who was crying to her parents earlier today because she was convinced she had killed her cat by crushing his head in the front door - even though the cat was alive and she hadn't been anywhere near the door - should have to finish writing a paper on Edgar Allen Poe when she shoud be in bed.

I detest how high school give you no recovery time for sickness, but loves throwing you out to your parents if you are sick because they don't want you spreading it around. Sure it's go away and recover, BTW here's a paper, three projects, and a major test to study for while you're recovering. YEAH, that really helps the recovery process.

Then there was the time that I was very very high on some painkillers my doc had prescribed after surgery and my parents thought I should go to school. And I have a test that day. I ask my teacher if I could take the test another day, but all he says is "You had time to study". I told him I did study, but I was high on the painkillers. He tells me to do my best. My best turns out to be some really strange sentences thrown together that didn't make much sense about things eating my brains. Needless to say I don't do well on the test and I'm not allowed to retake it.

This frustrates me...

Anyways tell me your thoughts and I'll get back to you after I finish my paper...

And find my favorite arm warmers....

Love,
AcidRayne

]]> 53717 2008-01-22 20:29:22 So I'm riding shotgun in our Chevy Lumina, stuck between the desicion of covering my nose with my hockey sweat covered sweatshirt, or smell my dad's cigarrette smoke when I started thinking...

...and yes, it hurt.

Anyways, I started thinking about relationships, especially the one's I had with my two previous boyfriends. Now the first one was sort of an obligatory relationship, meaning I sort of felt obliged to go out with him, I was young and naive then. Anyways that relationship lasted for only a few months before I realized he was more of a brother than a boyfriend.
The second boyfriend was my best friend who seemed perfect. He was blond haired, blue eyed, tall, lanky, and - according to every other girl in the school- gorgeous. Not that I didn't think he was attractive, I saw more personality in him than good looks.

'Course Mr. Right turned out to be Mr. Creepy. He barely let me have my own space. He followed me everywhere, as in I walked from one end of a room to another and he followed me like a puppy. Now some of you out there might thing that that's cute, but let me tell you, it gets old fast. I finally realized I had to let him go after he basically asked me to write out a list of rules for him to follow in our realtionship.
After I broke up with him ( and he still does this) he resorted to "ignoring" me, "hating" all the things I liked, playing hard to get (doesn't work when the other party isn't interested), he even went as far as to lie in the school newspaper just to get back at me.

Anyways this rant isn't about my ex-boyfriends, but about girls finding Mr. or Ms. Right. I think our biggest problem is our standards, even if we say we don't have any, we still set them too high. I know what I look for in a guy might be hard to find, my standards aren't that high, but the combination I want is hard to find.
For example, what my perfect guy would be like is: Smart, capable of holding a conversation, like me for what I like and who I am, like video games, play ice hockey, be sweet and sensative when the time calls for it, and at least be nice to look at(I'm not talking movie star here).
In our world that's like trying to find a college that offers degrees in digital art, support a women's ice hockey team, guarantee dorms, and be in state.

I'm not saying we have to let a guy walk all over us, and I'm not saying that we shouldn't have standards at all, but I think we should be a but more forgiving in our standards. Like at this point I'd love to have a guy that's nice to look at, likes me, and plays ice hockey (not hard to find, just none that like me as girlfriend material). I doubt we're going to find our proverbial knight and shining armor, so maybe we should settle for as close as we can get.

The other thing that discourages many girls is that they aren't or don't think they're supermodel pretty. I think many of us have been brainwashed by the media into thinking we have to look like the movie stars and the supermodels and we don't know how to work with the beauty we all ready have. I have a lot of guy friends and when I poll them about what they'd like better, a bony-near anorexic supermodel or a fit girl with a bit of padding they all tell me that they'd rather have the padding. The supermodel would make a great one night stand, but the girl with a bit of padding would be the one they always want to come home to.
In other words: work with what you've got, maybe pick up a fashion mag or two or surf the net to figure out how to accent your gorgeous eyes, or your amazing hair, or maybe your curves.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER CURVES ARE GOOD! GUYS LIKE CURVES!

Another thing I think we don't spend too much time thinking about is the fact that guys know about as much about us as we know about them. I think in a lot of relationships neither party is willing to step up and say what they like and what they don't like. And many times the girl expects the guy to be able to handle everything. I think the girl should be able to jump in and say "hey I HATE romance movies, why don't we check out a hockey game instead of going to see Atonement!" Instead of letting the guy assume that all girls only want to see romance movies with their boyfriends and making both of you miserable you should step up and do a little of what both parties like.

Okay this post is getting long so in summary:

1. be flexible when searching for a relationship.

2. Curves are better than bones.

3. Going dutch/agreeing to do a little of what everyone likes is not a bad thing.

4. HOCKEY STANK NEVER GOES AWAY!!! 0.0

With Wuv,

~AcidRayne

]]> 51844 2008-01-18 15:50:17 www.g4tv.com/thefeed/blog/post/682251/Videogames_Help_Save_Lives.html#readmore

Everyone knows video games do nothing but corrupt our nation's youth, turning them into mindless killing machines that would just as soon curb stomp you as look at you. Well, apparently, 28 year old Paxton Galvanek missed the memo, as he recently applied his America's Army video game skills to saving another's life.

This troubled young man has been a long time player of America's Army, where he was trained as a virtual field medic, not a rifleman or sniper. Obviously, the signs were all there, but no one was paying attention. On a regular November morning, Galvanek was driving along with his family down I-40 in North Carolina when they witness an SUV lose control and flip close to five times. Galvanek pulled over to the side of the road and had his wife call 911 while he checked the occupants of the now smoking SUV. And that's when Galvanek's story turned tragic.

Unlike any respectable videogamer, who would spend those crucial first moments searching the victims for money, ammo, power-ups, or questioning them for crucial mission information, Galvanek rescued the two injured men by removing them from the smoking vehicle and pulling them to the far side of the road.

Now, Galvanek had the injured men just where he wanted them. The driver of the car had even lost two fingers, leaving him virtually incapable of defending himself. But, yet again, Galvanek's story took another dark turn.

Instead of claiming their lives as his own, he saw to their wounds, using a towel to apply pressure to the driver's hand wounds. A few minutes later, an Army officer in plain clothes arrived on the scene and took over treatment of the victims. The ordeal was over.

In the aftermath, many are left asking the questions, "Why?" or "How can a loving God let something like this happen?" When asked directly why he had resorted to such actions, Galvanek had only video games to blame. But perhaps there is nothing more chilling that to hear the motives in the perpetrator's own words.

In a letter he wrote to the makers of the America's Army videogame, Galvanek claims, "I have received no prior medical training and can honestly say that because of the training and presentations within America's Army, I was able to help and possibly save the injured men. As I look back on the events of that day, the training that I received in the America's Army video game keeps coming to mind.”

TheFeed understands how this must be hard for many of you to understand. It must be difficult to fathom how people like this can go unnoticed by society for so long, especially with all the evident signs.

America, we must not forget. America, we must endure.

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BOOYAH! Eat that Jack Thompson and the state of New York!!

Sorry, just HAD to post this for all my fellow video game lovers out there.^^

]]> 51767 2008-01-18 12:37:16 So I know this subject has been touched upon a million and one times, and it's been ages since anyone's actually listened to Wacko Jacko, but last night I was watching Law and Order and something rekindled my passion on the subject of video game violence.

First I will explain to you my position on it:
I am a BIG fan of video games, I do not mind the violence, it's what makes the game fun and allows me to work out my agression so I don't take anything out on real people. I don't believe video game violence actually makes people go out and commit similar acts. Not that many people are that insane that they can't discern reality from virtual reality.

People like Jack Thompson and the state of New York will tell you that that's not true because statistically speaking many teenages, who have prior histories of violence, will come to court and claim that video games made them do it. Some of these kids have never really touched a video game in their life, and some of this kids are just misguided and criminally insane and are hoping for an easily way out of a hard sentence.

What I don't understand is how the courts are more willing to accept video game violence as an exuse for team crime, but not the violence you see on TV. I mean the violence on something like The Sopranos or Law and Order is more real, and close to our world that the violence in Halo or World of Warcraft. It's a whole lot easier to kill someone with a gun than it is to stand back and try casting spells at them. Sure you actually perform the action in a video game while you're just an outside party looking in when you watch TV, but TV is still closer to reality than video games.

These scandals on video game violence hurt the gaming community too, I mean it isolates us more because adults and parents start thinking that we're homicidal maniacs or something. But no one cares if we watch television violence all the time (or the NHL playoff series). No one thinks we're going to go out and kill a lot of people even though they do it realistically on TV and they don't in video games.

Anyways those are just my thoughts. I'd love to hear yours. For now though I'm going to go buy my ice hockey coach his lucky reeses cups for the game tonight.

~AcidRayne

]]> 51758 2008-01-18 12:06:46 KK, I found this attached to my new shin guards (I STILL FIT JR SIZES YAY! THEY COST LESS MONEY!!) And thought it was cool so I'm posting it here, if you want to use it just replaces my name with yours!^^

I, AcidRayne, promise never to be outhustled. I will play both ends of the ice, fight for every loose puck. I will sacrifice my body for my team. I will always choose grit over flash, substance over style. I will work, and sweat, and suffer, so that come gametime my team can shine. I am an ice hockey player.

]]> .<]]> 51440 2008-01-17 20:04:18 MMMkay, another thing that I'm not a big fan of...The Diary of Anne Frank. I'm sorry all you people out there that love it, but I don't see what's so great about it. And before any of you mention me not having read it, I just want to mention that I have...twice...along with the short stories that she wrote.

Why do I not think this book is all that important, because what did any of her writings have to do with true suffering? Oh boohoo I can only take a three minute long bath instead of a thirty minute bath, oh boohoo the only boy here to look at isn't cute but I think I like him anyways. How is that true suffering? Meanwhile she's living in the lap of luxury while her brethren are being burned, gasses, and brutally tortured while living naked behind walls of concrete and Nazi soldiers.

Now I completely understand the argument that it was written by a thirteen/fourteen year old girl and is an amazing piece of literature, but I've seen and heard of women and men younger than her writing equally impressive stuff without sounding like a whiny teenage brat. Not that I'm saying that she's not allowed to be a teenage brat, she was, she was a teenager, and teenagers tend to be bratty at times. But I've seen better works written by people her age that aren't annoying to read.

In terms of pure suffering, she wasn't. At least until they were captured she was not suffering, not suffering the same way the soldiers fighting for their freedom were suffering, starving, freezing to death, and dying of disease. A work written by a soldier, like let's say Eric Remarque's All Quiet on the Western Front, hits me so much harder, and strikes me as a better piece of literature to explain suffering that the diary of a whiny girl.

If you're looking for impressive history an literature about true suffering during the holocaust I have to say what I find impresive are the stories of the people who survive abuse in a concentration camp, that marched with their brethern falling around them for thousands of miles, and still found the strength and courage to just exist.

I am not denying that Anne Frank had a hard life, she did. But her life was many times more easy than that of say Elie Wiesel and the others that lived abused during the entirety of the holocaust.

Your opinions?
~AcidRayne

]]> 50923 2008-01-16 19:00:38 So I was at school the other day and someone comes up to me and says "Hey Acid, I saw you started a facebook page." This made me pause for a second, smudge the art project I was working on, then turn slowly to face the girl who had just spoken. "What?" I asked and she repeated herself. "I've done no such thing" I told her. We logged onto facebook through a proxy server and showed me "my" facebook page. It turned out that someone was impersonating me.

Now the thing you must understand about me is that I am no a fan of myspace or facebook, last thing I need is another internet addiction. I have no problem with people using the sites, you just won't catch me on them, specifically for the reason that it's a security risk for things like identity theft.

Anyways, back to the story. I went to my school's administration and we contacted facebook and they took down the profile page within 24 hours, but damage to me was still done. I am a very personable person though, so I managed to fix all the damage done to my and my reputation (if what I have can be considered a rep), so I was fine. Except for the fact that I am about 98% sure I know who did this to me and all I have is circumstancial evidence because they took the page down before I could use the guy's IP address to trace him down and - at the risk of sounding like a crazed vigilante- bring him to justice.

What really pisses me off is that the guy who I'm sure did it is on my very own ice hockey team (yes I play ice hockey with guys, deal with it). He's the guy no one particulary likes because he ostracizes himself. I guess what I don't understand is why he would attack the one person on the team who actually tried at one point to make him feel welcome. He's made his life on the team even worse now because I did tell the rest of the team, all of whom either like me a lot, or like me enough to at least talk amicably with him, and now they hate him even more.

He's also hurt himself because I'm far ahead in the running to be a team captain next year, I've been working a lot with our current captains, managers and coaches to help improve the team next year so that we can actually move up to tier one after I graduate. I don't understand why he would make his stay on the team worse by upsetting people who have a bit of power over him

Maybe one of you out there can explain. If you could I'd be eternally grateful, as much as I dislike this kid, and as much as he creeps me out, he is still a member of my team, my family, and I want to help him. Though if my plans to implement a few new policies on the team go through, he won't be able to stay on the team because of the sheer number of practices he misses without any form of excuse.

Also, I want people to know that what I described is a form of cyber bullying. I want anyone who's been bullied like the way I described, or in any other way to know that you can go to the school administration and safely help yourself without hurting the way you look to other people. And that it's okay to be pissed off at the person who bullied you. Feel free to get back at them too, though I wouldn't reccomend it.

Take care all,

AcidRayne

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