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| January 1st 2009 - A new year |
So it's sometime after midnight so technically we have entered the new year. Still waiting for my new mind set to kick in. What is it about a new start that we love? A new school term, a new year, a monday. They are all days the new diet etc begin. Is it that we want to renew ourselves or need to give ourselves a second chance? Well enough pondering. What am I changing this year? I have written out some thing I'd like to be changed this time next year and put it in a little tin ready to open in 365 days time. I do feel like an eleven year old but it'll be interesting. I want to make myself happy. I want to do the typical woman resolution and get my lazy arse to the gym more than monthly. I want to start dating again. I've had my whole 2 months around of being moody and missing the guy and now it's time to go out and have fun again. I feel like there's a little gap missing of me where my relationship was. When you have ended a relationship you realise as great as your friends are, it isn't the same and there's things like new year and days when you feel a bit down that your other half are yours, a guarantee. Someone to talk to anytime and of course the whole third wheel scenario I seem to be facing with some friends but this leads me to another question.
At the end of a relationship what is it that we miss more: the person or the relationship? I've done the missing him part and now I think I just miss being in the relationship. I think for that person it was the relationship I miss a lot more. Now I think it's time for me to arm myself with friends and shopping bags and lead myself to the next person that could become the relationship but not before dabbling in dating. It seems an irrelevant and un-important part but where do I meet him? Where do I meet anyone new for that matter? I seem to have run out of ideas. I hope that some miracle happens this January and I get an oppurtunity to meet a whole spree of new and interesting people.
I'm awful at organization and getting friends together and I think this year I should make the effort of socializing with them. having people over etc. And of course maybe letting my newer friends in more so that they can be the people I spend time with on those rainy days and phone randomly. So that's my new year rant and ideas. Wish me luck?
Abigail Moore
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Posted by AbigailJune on 2008-12-31 19:55:37 | Rating: | Views: 49
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