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| i was just sitting here. . thinking. . .
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and well. . . i think im in love. but the problem is that im in love with someone that doesnt feel the same about me. maybe i am mistaking my feelings of want for love, but then again i dont know.
he is a good friend. and an amazing lover. but i know that he isnt ready for a relationship, not to mention the fact that he has a million girls all over him. yes yes, i know. why shoudl i want to be with someone who i know i wouldnt ever end up being with? ugh! thats the frustrating part. we are good friends. and obviously a little more then that at times, but i know that it wont ever go beyond that. why though? i mean i know that he is probably looking to settle down with someone that has their life put together since thats where he is at. but i can make him happy and take care of him. i would be with him in a heartbeat! i truely have fallen in love with him. how? why? when did this happen? why cant i control how i feel? damn it! it just makes me soo mad.
and not to mention that one of his friends is really tryin to kick it with me and what not. ha! it wont happen. well, we are goin to the movies tomorrow and we have talked on the phone a couple of times, but im not attracted to him. and the fact that i have had sex with one of his friends and truely have feelings for one of his friends i guess that kinda takes away from the attraction level. ohh wow.
yeah. i got a whole lotta problems that i need to deal with. oh wow.
forget LOVE! its soo over-rated. not to mention the fact that its just damn near impossible! ugh!
okay well im gonna head back to the house now.
xoxo always! |
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Posted by ALeilaniK on 2008-02-07 23:05:30 | Rating: | Views: 68
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