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we broke up for 6months before he came back to me and proposed. I had dated some other guys in that time, and slept with 2, messed around with some others. But my current husband was my first, perhaps i was afraid he would be my only. So when i said yes, i knew i meant it deep in my heart, that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. i know before me he had other girlfriends, and as he tells me only slept with one other before me... was he ready to commit to such a life long journey? What was he expecting? While we were broken up i dated this guy completely opposite. He as a mucscian..on our first date he played the guitar and sang to me, i fell right into his arms. We had nothing in common, i liked beer, he liked wine. He was a foreign film freak and music...i dont even know where he got it from. Not me. top 20 and new friday flicks. But it was fun while it lasted .I still thought of my current husband during that time, and missed the connection we had together. How does that get lost? How do you get it back?
So the work out thing was nice, I had to giggle on my way there though because the kids were quite crabby, but see ya...this was your idea. So my time with my husband consisted of him coming home at 545, eating dinner, cleaned up and out the door by 645. By the time i got home kids in bed, and fell asleep in the chair....we didn't even have to talk. Just what he wants. I was reading some blog entries from another user, going thru a separation with his wife...talking about all the small things he misses about her. I wondered if he was the macho man in the begining, didnt want to talk, and now it has gotten that far.
I can only hope that my husband has those feelings somewhere deep in him, but why not share them with me? Thanks for comment on my prev entry, I guess i am still young with this marriage thing and understanding men. So tell him what I need and want. Is it fair of me to wait until he asks me. I want him to initiate something, see me for what my needs are. But I feel my self growing apart from him. I dont even want him to look at me, touch me, hug or kiss me. It just doesnt feel natural or right...just that we would be going through the motions. As far as valentines day, i dont want anything either...it would mean more on a non-hallmark day, just out the blue showing that he appreciates me. that he loves me, that he wants to be with me and raise this family we have started together. I just need him to connect with me, understand his role as a husband and a father. quit being so selffish and self centered. you wanted this to--didn't you?
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Posted by 2much2do on 2008-02-12 23:29:48 | Rating: | Views: 64
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Search your heart, look into his eyes. Communicate. Don't give up. If you have anything left together work at building it together. Families should stick together - but make sure you have a good reason.
Remember why you got together in the first place and re-create that fun!
I don't know I may be way off base, but it hurts to have love & lost where people gave up and found something more exciting.
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-02-20 05:34:47
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