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where I never thought I would be
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So, here I am....where I never thought I would be. I have move across the country to live with the man who I thought was the one for me......and now I think he just might be a cheating rat bastard.
Today is 09/07/07......and last night I felt compelled to look at his cell......Read More
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Posted on: 2007-09-07 12:34:13 |
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stupid girl
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here I lay
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Here I lay.....still wondering just what it is that I am doing. I can't go back to Cali. I can't run back with my tail between my legs. Things go right for a whike....and then I see him outside on the phone, and I wonder.....who is he talking to? Is he talking to Liz? Right in front of......Read More
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Posted on: 2007-09-08 07:44:14 |
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cheating
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I got caught looking.....UGH!
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I got caught looking at Scott's phone this morning. There was a message from Liz.....:I know you aren't going to like this, but I need you to not call me this weekend. I need to get my head on straight." As I was setting the phone down...Scott walked in and turned it on me.......Read More
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Posted on: 2007-09-08 15:11:17 |
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help
depression
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cant even muster up a fake smile
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I just got done helping Monkey work on a school project....it was good. Felt good to do something with her that is productive. I miss the time we use to have together....just the two of us getting silly. I thought moving here would allow for silly times too....but it seems that sadness has......Read More
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Posted on: 2007-09-09 08:30:54 |
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trust
disrespect
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why can't I?
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So, we went out...the three of us....had a nice time in general.....I am sick...stuffy and have a headache. I was a little irritated when Scott suggested going and renting movies......I was tried and the restaurant was loud....so my head hurt more than before we left. But, I went in......for......Read More
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Posted on: 2007-09-09 20:59:09 |
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foolish
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another day of questions
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I have more questions......more and more every day. Why is he messing with me?
No one wanted the dinner I cooked....seems to be par for the course around here, yet when asked for suggestions.....no one has any. We ate MRE's which weren't too bad.....far from the yummy noises......Read More
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Posted on: 2007-09-10 22:12:25 |
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used
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sex
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tired
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I am tired of living. It's too hard. I want to sleep....................................................... ...................................................
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Posted on: 2007-09-10 22:23:23 |
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tired
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yet again
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Scott has "volunteered" to go out and get something.....so out of character for him. He's "sick" yet has the energy to run out and grab this or that.........it is just too odd for me. Scott doesn't do this....at least not the Scott I thought I knew. I wonder WHERE Liz......Read More
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Posted on: 2007-09-11 17:53:50 |
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odd
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Still? or is it Again?
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Wow....I didn't write yesterday.....I have plenty to say.
Scott and I had good conversation last night.......he assured me that he has not been communicating with Liz and that he has no idea why the messages that were there were sent. I so want to believe him, so want to trust......Read More
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Posted on: 2007-09-13 06:09:32 |
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trust
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alone
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I fel so alone.....not only do I feel alone, I am alone.
Day in and day out...nothing but alone. None of the Cali people call and I know no one here....so it's me......alone. I don't do well on my own for long perods of time.
Just one friend....someone to lean on......Read More
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Posted on: 2007-09-13 11:09:55 |
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alone
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