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well...today i am going to write bout my thought bout my boyfriend..i use to call him dearie everytime n i loves him..*wink*he is someone who is really perfect in the world..he is clever,brilliant,handsome,affluent..but he is a bit naughty style's boy...i got an ex bf b4 tis..we had been together for 2 years(me n my ex)we are so sweet tat time...well,now my problem is i feel tat i love my ex more than my bf..wat should i do?i got lots of sweet memories with my ex..n it is impossoble for me to 4get him coz we had been together for 2 years..n in this 2 years,he was the one who really care for me all the time..i really feel tat he is the one i am finding to be my life partner..bua alas,we broke because of many reasons..actually,we broke once b4 we really broke..tat time i am the one hu suggest to break..but at last,we still be together bac..we are so sweet tat time..totally i can feel the love from him...i know he love me more than i love him..he cares for me..i gt wat i wan from him..n i really love him..however,when spm results came out,his results are worse than mine..but to me,still ok..just a bit shock when my result is better than him..cause he is the one who always teach me tis and tat..n the most important is he taught me even on the night b4 the exam..he know i am ppl who is easily panic..he console me alll the time..and he really make me feel warm..albeit he din say "i will sustain u"like wat my current bf used to say when i am panic for the exam..but i know he is always there for me no matter wat happen..wat a paradox scene..i act wanna talk bout my current bf,but dunno y i can write till my ex..my ex and my current bf really have huge difference..they are totally two different world's ppl...TOTALLY..my ex is tat type of hardworking n care more for his gf but nt his fren..however,my current bf is the one who nt the hardworking type..but is the naughty type n fren is the most important in his life i think...i feign myself when i be with my current bf..i know i loves my current bf..but...siigh..things are complicated..i did a test yesterday..n the test proved tat i have not forget my ex AT ALL..i admit tat..i checked on his facebk profile almost everyday..can u imagine?albeit i do the same thing to my current bf..but..sigh..the most sad stuff is my ex now gt gf..n they are blissful..i can see tat..cause my bf really is a considering bf...he is considerate enuf to make girls happy..n i am so glad to hav his as my bf b4..at least b4...he doted me so much till i neglected his feeling..he told me b4 tat bout my attitude...he told me he can endure all tat bcoz he loves me..bcoz he is my bf..but nt everyone can endure with mine tis kind of attitude...i know tat..i really know...after broke,he gt called up me n ask whether can be back together or nt..i am confused tat time..perhaps a bit bcoz of my egoism,i rejected him..other reason is bcoz distance pro..n i know tat time he starts to lke other girl..i really give up tat time...actually deep in my heart,i feel tat i still miss him..i feel tat i still wan him to become my bf..but everything is over..i dunno wat i wan now..how bout my current bf?sigh..i am lost...totally lost

Posted by 18gurl on 2009-11-05 23:47:39 | Rating: